Im starting to miss him, its like theres this empty void inside of me when hes gone, but when hes around it disappears.
Saturdaday was fairly intresting, i had about sixteen people over because i was bored, he came over with Wes and Ariel.
Wes is his best friends (and a friend of mine as well) and Ariel is his girlfriend....
I get along with Ariel, shes really nice, and her cousin is also a friend of mine. Its just that when im around Ariel I realize the things that she has and the things that i dont. Im happy that i at least get something.
I can be content.

I like the way he kisses my neck when we have to leave each other, it makes me feel.... I dont know the best way i can say it is wanted, i feel wanted for once in my life.
People are complicated.

We got on the subject of how I told him I loved him on thursday... It was the first time i got to see him after telling him how i feel.
He asked me if i was sure i loved him again and i told him i didnt know because love isnt one sided, he said, and i quote, "You can still feel the emotion, I just feel the same." i kindof flinched, its kinda better not hearing him say that, but its good he did i guess at least i know how he feels.

I wasnt really..... i dont know the word.
Of course i can still love him, i just wish i didnt when he doesnt feel the same, it makes things so complicated. Theres no stopping it.
Everything happens for a reason right?