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He knows I love him but does he care?

This is how it went today, all day I had this unusual NEED to tell him how I really feel about him.
So earlier I started texting him and these are the texts

Danie:I feel weird again

Him:Why?

Danie:Cuz I'm holding back a lot today. Not in a perverted way, but just..... IDK

Him: You ok?

Danie: Mhm. Just thinkin bout things.

Him: Ok...

Danie:I really have to tell you something.......

Him: Then tell me?

Danie: Would your opinion of me change if i told u?

Him: I doubt it. What is it?

Danie:Trust me. Things will change. I'd rather tell you in person........

Him: Gah. Just fuckin tell me.

(that kind of alerted me that he wanted to know  because he doesnt really cuss )

Danie: Ok but please dont think me weird.
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I think I love you...

Him:Oh. I dont think you're weird. But are you sure?

Danie:IDK thats why I said 'think'

Him:Ok. but i dont feel the same sorry.

Danie: Nah its ok. I knew that already. Its weird how I feel at times. Its an on/off type of thing with me.

Danie: U arent going to act strange around me are you?

Him: No stranger than usual. As long as your ok with it.

Danie:Im fine, I just like keeping things bottled up.

Him: You dont have to. Im ok with whatever you think, Im sure.

And basically thats the end of all the intresting stuff.
I really do think I love him but he cant love me, I know that.
Im just gonna let it happen, stop looking and just letting it find me.
That should work, or maybe he'll fall for me later on on this journey, i dont know for certain but no one ever does, its a matter of fate.
If he doesnt fall for me, oh well, things with him make me happy and they're exciting.
Im taking chances and i like it.
If i get hurt i will heal, thats how life works.
But the question still remains....
Could he fall in love with me? 

Posted by SecretDanie on 2008-05-08 15:15:07 | Rating: n/a | Views: 171


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Posted by
Dreamer86
on 2008-05-08 22:27:27
 
At the same time that I completely get what you're saying I have to tell you that.. Honestly, I don't think you know what love really is yet. I think this whole thing with him is just .. stupid. I Love you and I love him and it feels like you're both gonna end up hurt some how. It's to much. IDK. But I do get what you feel and I know it's confusing and stupid and just gah! And I'm here for you whenever you need me.
 
 

Posted by
theiceberg
on 2008-05-09 04:49:19
 
I did the same thing a couple of weeks ago, for the soul intention of just getting it over and done with. It was by far one of the bravest things I have done in my life. It's easy to tackle other issues..but when it's matters of the heart..I'm yellow.

I always say, "you have the right to your feelings..and no one should tell you better." You do what you must, if you think it's right for you and its the right thing to do. And for now, nothing else should matter.
 
 

Posted by
theiceberg
on 2008-05-09 04:59:58
 
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. CARPE DIEM!
 
 

Posted by
eurikish
on 2008-05-09 05:35:20
 
T_T it hurts!!! i hate guys wHo turned a girl dOnt because of tOo much hOnesty!!
but, its fOr gOOd!!
 
 

Posted by
Mehitabel
on 2008-05-09 07:40:33
 
Being a guy whose been around the block once or twice, let me try and put a perspective on this. If there's already a less than platonic relationship going on, telling a guy you love him normally sends him running for the hills. Generally speaking (and there are exceptions) guys don't like being put on the spot emotionally. As for the long term prognosis... Well, if it was me, I'd probably react the same way Danie did, however that's not to say that my feelings can't change (so possibly his too). I'm the sort that likes to get to know someone quite well before I can truly say I love them. Bear in mind, I'm clear in my mind about the difference between infatuation (also known as chemistry) and love. Don't read anything too negative into his response, just be yourself and let him get to know you. That said, if he's known you for some time and doesn't feel the same then maybe it's time to move on.
 
 


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