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Hi Everyone,
so long time no speak!!!!
Ow my god, soo much has happened!!
Things going well with the club promotions, free nights drinking champaign in VIP with celebs,, and lots of cocain, all celebs are doing it,,, i could make a fortune if i took sneaky piccys,, i wouldnt but easily could.
Anyways i have done the worst thing a person could ever ever do,,,, u no i said i live with a guy and i introduced him to my mate and they started dated its been 3 months know,, thing with them look on the outside as its going well, im happy for them really,, except i got pissed off her being round 24/7 ect ect,, had few arguments,, know she cheats on him and they both tell me stuff and im stuck in the middle.
well recently wen she hasnt been round, i go in his room and watch da telly as its more sociable, and he has a diggy box, well after one night of binge drinking, we did the worst thing,, worst thing a friend could do.... we slept together,,,,, i no i no i no ,,, i commited the worst thing a friend could do, and unforgivable thing.
I dont no if i like him, i think its because iv never got close to a guy like this, we are such good mates that it just grew, between us there is no awkwardness or anything and iv never had that!!
well no im in a padicament, when shes round he and her are sicking in love, kissing, laughing, pillow fights, feeding one another, buying gifts,
i of course no the truth, his a sleeze bag, if he could do that with me he could do it with anyone, he obviously feels no way! and shes also cheating on him.
how can they have a relashionship its madness!!
So i have to sit there and watch this.. its soul distroying, i have done the worst thing a friend could do,, the biggest NO NO rule.
And not only that am i fallen for my friend, my house mate but worst my mates boyfriend??
What do i do??
i also did sumick silly.. i got drunk with the mate the other day and she asked if anything has happend between us! i sed there been a moment were sumick nearly did but nothing happend as me and him are like brother and sister and it was just the drink. i told her not to say anything, but three days later, she said its playing on her mind and she is going to say somehting to him,, say if he just turns around and says i slept with him.,, ow my god what do i do, what do i do!!!!!
Why do i constantly put this stress on my life, can never just have a simple exsists!!!
Life sucks,, xmas soon, am skint, still need to buy loads of presents arhhh god what do i do!
I have this on my mind 24/7, the guilt is horrible.
But still when shes not round me and him end up in the same bed, not having sexual relashions, but stroking ones arm, holding hands, pillow fighting!!!!!!!! stupid flirty things which is even worst than sex , in a sense!!!!!
I no i shouldnt and i feel guilty but i cant say nooo!!!!!!!!
What do i do ,,, what do i do!!!!!
Please give me advice ASAP,!!!!!!!!!!!
X Sophie X Worst friend in the world!!!!!!
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Posted by SecertGal on 2007-12-17 11:38:51 | Rating: | Views: 94
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You should consider finding another roommate, and then fessing up to your friend, or else its going to come out and youll end up looking worse for not being honest!
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Posted by shannatucker
on 2007-12-17 11:45:27
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Wow, this is not a good situation. I have you tell you, about 11 months ago I was dating this guy and he was good friends with my best girlfriend. About 2 months into the relationship I kinda got the feeling like something was going on between them so I asked my best friend and she said that there was nothing on and how they were just friends and how he was "like a brother" to her. So I believed her. About 3 months after that, my boyfriend came to me and told me that we needed to talk. He told me that 4 months ago he slept with my best friend and how they had done it for a whole month behind my back. Obviously I was discusted my the whole situation, but I have to tell you, I respect him so much more than I respect her just because he was honest wtih me.
She still deny's it ever happened. We haven't been friends since.
The best advice I can give you is to be honest with your friend. Friends are suppose to look out for eachother. At the beginning its going to be hard, she's goign to be really mad. But if she's anything like me, she's going to respect that she heard it from you and not someone else. You have to tell her!
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Posted by jackiemarie
on 2007-12-17 15:51:39
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i know, ur both right,i would ususal,, but i cant seem to pull away from him, he has this hold on me,,omg its bad,,!! right ur both right i need to move out then tell my mate,if i say wilst im still there it will b on livable !! thanks for the comments! xx
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Posted by SecertGal
on 2007-12-18 07:59:33
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