There is so much to be said, but I guess I should start by filling you in.  
 
 So, we get a new kid at our highschool and it doesnt even accure to me that this is someone I am going to become good friends with.  He starts out making some friends and eventualy decides to talk to me.  After one day of talking, he asks me to hang with him at the mall.  We went out and had a great time!  The bus ride might have even been more fun then the mall itself.  Anyway, we exchanged e-mail addies and cell numbers.  We talked all the time and he called constantly.  He asked me to go to lunch with him one afternoon.  My friends completly have me convinced it is a second date.  Although, I didnt even think the first time we chilled was a date.  One of my girlfriends told me if he;

1)Asked me.
2)Payed for everything.
3)Had physicle contact at all.
4)And told me he would call when leaveing
..that it was a date!  
 
 We went out on this second date and had the best time. He insisted on paying for everything and when we got the food he decided it would be 'fun' to chase me around the resteraunt making a huge scene, so that I would eat a spicy natcho.  He practicly sat on me, but it was very flirty and I had alot of (embaressing) fun.  Then we went to the ice rank an talked for a while and then he bought me a hot chocolet.  It turned out to be the best Saturday ever, until he told me he was moving to Scarbro.  OW!  Was that out of nowhere or what!  The way he told me was a bit more ow seeing as he worded it like this; "Want to come over?  It is a bit messy.  We have boxes everywhere from packing."
Uhm, rewind!

 So looking past the whole moving thing his friend tells me how much money he really spent on my christmas gift, and I am thinking he much really care or he just has the money to spend.  Then it turns out that him and his ex got back together, the same day he asked me to the winter dance.  I said no, and he was decideing if he still wanted to go.  Now, this is where I get confussed.  Ither he is a huge ass player (which at first looked like his typ until I got to know him) or, he really does care but took a second chance with the girl he always knew he kinda loved.  
 
 This is where I start to think I didnt get to know him well enough because boy is he a player.  I feel really bad for his girlfriend because there is a difforence between dancing and full on dry sex, on the dance floor.  Pictures were posted on Facebook and I was shocked to even see he went to the dance, but there were more surprises.  The person he was "dancing" with was someone he knew for 1 day and also my ex friend from grade 5 who has had a no-reasoned hate for me for years now.  

 Possible feelings..
-Jelous
-Angry
-Not even caring
-Upset

 Now I cant even tell which I am right now.  In a way I am jelous because that could have been me if I said yes.  But then I am angry because the jerk is a huge player and I was so close to being COMPLETELY sucked into that.  Then I dont care because well, he's leaveing.  And then Im upset because the whole situation is just painful.  I wanted to just be single and not care in highschool, and this 'dateing' shit is just messing that up.