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Lilly

Name: Lilly
Nickname: None
Age: 12
Hair: Blonde. Mid neck length
Eyes: Greenish. Kinda Hazel (Mom thinks they are blue)
Status: Single, but in love with an amazing boy.....he doesn't really like her back...or so she believes
Physical Features: Very thin. She's just over 101 lbs. Small for a 12 year old, only about 5' 2". Average looking. Has purple under her eyes, she doesn't really get a lot of sleep
Clothes: Skinny jeans and black tank tops. Black flats with bands written on them. White coat that says Boys Like Girls on it.
Life Story/ Description: Lilly is a normal, everyday 12 year suffering from deep depression. She is very shy and quiet. She's not really the teachers pet, but she gets her work done as best she can. Her parents don't know, but her depression is so bad, she cuts herself. To her, it's like a cure, she's addicted. Only a few of her friends know, they tell her to stop, but she doesn't really think that they understand why she does it. She is in love with one of her closest friends. He's the most best thing that's probably ever happend to her. He's perfect in every way. He's kind, sweet, caring, nice, and amazingly cute. They were together before, but some mishappenings took place, which ended up with him being with her friend. Some more mishappenings took place, which lead that to him being with one of her other friends. Lilly confessed all of her feelings to him, he said he understood. He said that he liked her a lot, but doesn't want for her to be hurt, because he couldn't promise that he wouldn't hurt her again. Lilly understood, and they both agreed that it was a bad idea that they be together again. But to this day...Lilly still loves him with all her heart, and wishes that he knew that she doesn't care if he hurts her, she doesn't care if he breaks her from limb to limb, that she'll still love him with all her heart and with everything that she has. She is frusterated with him because he doesn't understand that, and she thought that he did..she craves for him to be with her. It's hard for her to know that he's with her friend and not her, because she's jealous. Lilly feels as if her friend took her place, but knows that as longs as he is happy, so is she. Lilly knows that she shouldn't be so selfish....but she is. She's selfish because she wants him all to herself, she's upset when she sees him with other girls that aren't her. She just wants him and only him. She knows that she can't ask him to be with her again because he is afraid she'll be hurt. She's not all that brave, so she keeps it all locked up. Lilly knows that if they were together again, she probably wouldn't be so depressed and would stop cutting because she would be so happy, but like I said, she couldn't just ask him to be with her again. Even though Lilly loves him more than anything in the entire world and would like nothing better than to be with him always, she just wants him to be happy. And if he is happy with someone else, even if it's not her, then she'll be happy too.

Forever, For Always, and No Matter What