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Has anyone ever had that? Like you date this guy and he is so perfect but then you mess things up and you start dating a guy after 8 months after you dated the other guy and this new guy says he loves you and you say it but you dont know if you mean and then he asks that one question... that one question.. The one question that defines everything you worked so hard to forget. Well for me it was that one question that i thought about over and over again.
To begin this journey of that one question that i asked myself many times is to begin while on a journey to find food for me. Now i am not selfish but roman noodles at a druggies house not my idea of a date.. not one bit. Of course i been hanging out with my boyfriend of a little less then a month who yes does drugs for medical purposes.. I think but who knows. Anyway so him and i are walking down to wendy's and i didnt know i didnt have my plastic on me. and we are walking just talking about random things.. then that one question that one damn question that blows my mind everytime i think about it. and he happens to bring it up right then and there. The question was simple and straight to the point. he asked " honey?" yes soft teddy bear" i say in reply.... silence " would you ever take you ex back if he ever came back? what am i suppose to say to that. Of course i stop and think for awhile and say the first thing that wont hurt his feelings " no soft teddy bear i woudl pick you" then he goes on say "what if he comes back and wants to fight over you waiting you to forgive him and things like that" the whole time he is saying this i am thinking to myself 'you know you would pick your ex no matter what" but i told him.
"i will still pick you.. along with a call to the cops and a crow bar in my hand" and he laughs and kisses me.. i lost my breath on that one... because it was a happy dont leave kiss and i felt really guilty. I do love my boyfriend but he is more of that friend to me.. a friend that i can be myself around... and i thought on the way home.. who would i really pick and i weighed the options.
My ex: great smile, he talks for hours, has everything in common wiht me, thinks like i do, we dont fight, his eyes alone pierce every singel bone in my body, his lips are soft, he has the greatest laugh in the world, doesnt do drugs, he has his own place, drives everywhere, in the military, and hell he had everything planned.
My new man: druggie, doesnt drive, doesnt live out on his own, doesnt work a full time job, his voice makes me want to shoot myself ever now and then, he smells in somewhat of a good way.. on occasion i must admit, his lips are soft, his touch makes me want to run for the hills. And i am very bored with him. All we do is han gout a his friends house who i seriously think hate my guts.... but now that i think about it he might actually like me.and i seriously dont see myself growing old wiht this guy unless i am drugged up or liquored up at all times. of course i get turned on when i am both.
But seriously. has anyone have that happened.. and will i grow to love my new boyfriend like my ex.
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Posted by lovetypeme
on 2008-08-09 12:49:14
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