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So much, So little ....

Watched Race yesterday around this time (missed blogging in the bargain) and have since wondered what baba was so scandalized about ....youngsters these days wouldnt even bat an eyelid, I guess, at these sort of things.

Am worried about the waiting game ...would really like to move on now ....difficult as it is to maintain a balance on both sides in the face of so much uncertainty ...I dont want to stay on in this project for ever ....this much I know for certain ...but there is nothing much I can do ...except wait and watch .....and do some pushing , which I so abhor....but I have been adviced, in no uncertain terms that, that is the only way to get things done ....how pathetic ....and I cant even appear convincing ...poor me.

There was this zeal to do so many things ...say like two years back ...but now, no matter what I do, or hope to do, theres this gloom which permanently hovers around, reminding me of things I never forgot anyways. A hundred things I could do that would keep me busy, in fact 24 hours wouldnt be enough for them all ......but then I would always know, that there is that something , yet undone .....no matter how hard I laughed today, I know that it didnt really spread within ..... that there is still that something, yet undone.....

In the middle of all this chaos, all I hope to have is for each day to end in a safe, harmless, hassle free way ....without adding to my woes ......have enough of them already ....