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Popping up ...

Its Showtime !!
Like in rest of the things in my life, looks like I lost my way even here .....and how quick too ......my blogging ---poor thing is going nowhere ....
Lots of quick decisions ....decided by the heart as much by the mind.
'Jahan nahi chaina....wahan nahi rehna' seemed to be my guiding force ...has been, in fact, at all the times that I have taken 'the decision' ...but its always easy to let go of the outside, of outsiders .....when it comes to letting go of near & dear ones ...can be a different ball game altogether.
Again ..I will say that I wish it hadnt turned out this way ....but then each time life throws up these challenges, I take the same old dreaded path, the way I did now...and have always done before.....and no amount of forwarnings would do any good.
As though it is me , who not only goes looking for a pothole , but also falls into it , only to come out and go looking for another one ...Some viscious circles this ....

These last few days have been bland ...I decided to detoxify and see how it works out ...I have been in this deciding phase for the last few months ....lets see how long this holds up ....I hate bland...except if its curds or cream crackers.

Funny how I suddenly decide these things ...like I dont think there is any change in any of the variables in my duniya, except ofcourse in my imagination, where one variable was able to irk me so much that I decided that some stern action was in order.

"She looked up and caught the calm gaze that fell upon her. Feels so real....so Alive, she thought, as she moved along in wonder, returning the gaze, every now and then ....." Friends? " She asked finally. She waited some and then started giggling to herself.
But ofcourse, the moon doesnt answer."

That wasnt me ......Guess I need to catch up on my reading ....