It has left a bad taste ....wont be able to get over it so soon.....but this had to happen I guess...wonder why I react like that... each time ...so much devastation ...and so many ground realities to deal with ....

Like all times, would like to believe that everything happens for the best ....though its still unclear at present what that best thing is supposed to be. But it did spring up some realities, that I had pused back to some long forgotten corner of my mind, and they needed to be addressed.

I just hope something good comes out of this....if not for me, atleast for the rest .....maybe it will put some sense into these hard hearted peoples heads.

But if I start counting now, I know this is not a good sign at all ....keep falling into the same trap again and again....wonder why I am so blind even when I can clearly see where my path is leading me to .... maybe the reason lies somewhere else ....in all those little moments in time ...and it was a just a question of releasing the floodgates, for it to all surge out, oblivious to time and place.

I never expected it to happen here....but how unfortunate that it has ...and now I have to deal with it .