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I stopped blogging since that "incident" if we shall call it.
and i went on a mad deleting rampage, and deleted most of the blogs.
even the ones i wanted to keep.
but here's whats happened in my life lately.
for all those who care..
School is finally out. 2 more years and i'm done with it.
My life has gone more from the shit to...the holy shit this sucks so fucking much kill me now.
the counselling doesn't seem to be working.
and i've never been more depressed.
what's the point of living anyway?
you live to die.
my mum made things worse,
by telling me that we are in debt, and took out a second mortage on the house
and how she was depressed and suicidal.
how...is that meant to help.
she blamed the money problems on me.
because i have a bunch of counselling appointments and doctors appointments.
and apparently my meds are too much.
so i'm going to talk to the doctor about taking me off them.
last night, instead of taking 75 mgs of saroquel, to sleep, i took...350 ish.
i slept...finally...
i'm still tired.
in august i'm going to vancouver,and then i'm going to england.
i don't want t come back.
i might not come back from vancouver, to be honest.
uh oh. runaway. report that also why don't you
you have no idea how that fucked things up...
just fuck. fuck you.
what else has happened..
.i cut down on smoking.
which is a plus.
aside from..a couple nights ago, i chain smoked like...9.
:/
i need alcohol.
i need drugs..
i hate being sober.
maybe i'll become an alcoholic coke head,
or something.
just..
fuck soberility.
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Posted by SJLack on 2008-07-14 21:32:50 | Rating: | Views: 44
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