Wow. I feel even worse. . . .like a total b****.....

I guess there were a lot of complications with what my boyfriend(?) was trying to get to me and we made up, fortunately but the distance still is a bother, more to him than me...

I don't know, maybe it's because I have innumerable people I know who are very far away and I know that I'll miss them and I can reach them in limited ways, but they've always resided in my heart.

Maybe that's why the whole long-distance relationship thingy seemed like a cakewalk, plus the fact that he's so wonderful, however unsure he may be about himself...I suppose I need to try and start really knowing myself too.....

I am learning how to draw broken contour, which consists of looking at an object exactly how it is and never taking your eye off it until you have followed the line maybe about an inch or so. 

It seems like loathsome work, but if you're like me (be glad you're not) it's actually really fun and new to me. I drew a couple pf my classmates and one turned out okay and the other I thought was almost magnificent. However, the latter classmate whom I drew said I moved and fidgeted too much, so it didn't turn out as good(I can't help it T_T  I'm a move-and-shaker, not a sit-on-my-butt-and-be-a-model....er) 

So when I partnered up with another classmate I tried to keep perfectly still(torture), even though I had to look up and look down at my paper over and over. 
 
  I tried to focus and just be intent on drawing him and it was a good thing that he was easy to look at but I felt really weird actually looking straight into someone's face because I have wandering eyes and I have to always observe my surroundings.

  So I was surprised that I actually did a good job, but when I looked at his contour drawing I was all "wow.....I look sexy XD" my self-portrait didn't turn out like that, and it had value(with contour, it's slightly simplified drawing but you still have to utilize detail and perspective). We'll be working on drawing the classroom tomorrow. 

  We had a sort of mock crash thingy used to promote safe driving, basically they just slapped some pre-crashed vehicles(don't know how they went along doing that) and stuffed some S.A.D.D. kids in both autos and "bloodied" them up and made them look limp.
  They had the whole nine yards: paramedics, fire rescue, cops, hospital copters, even a hearse to help them do the whole simulation thing.  It was pretty neat, but this is what they taught me since I entered public school.

  They should be teaching this to the kids who are already alchoholics, drugheads and electronics addicts that way  everyone vacates the classroom and I can just sit and learn without them snorting dope around me and smelling like pot and beer and nicotine, and I can just get better grades and be the hyperactive, drug-free, straight-edge dork I am happy to be.  

When the helis landed people were like"omg helicopters I've never seen one this close!!," blah blah....I was like "pff"  because my dad used to build planes and we would always go to the airshows to see the ones he built and I  may have seen more aircrafts at all the airshows I've gone to combined  than an aircraft carrier captain.
  Sometimes they would use the bombers to drop bombs about 100 ft from the viewing fence at the end and it was always so cool to see......don't take my word for it. go to one. They're freakin' awesome XD.