29494 Blog Feed: RomeosMadWorld 2008-10-10 10:10:05 RomeosMadWorld Your e-mail address 161725 2008-10-10 09:09:44 That people grow, people change
People mature and rearrange-
Has never led a real life,
For what I have seen
That is, what I mean is-
Every single person
In the 'coperate office life'
Remind me of 12 year old girls.

There is no privacy,
No morals or ideas-
Everything is everyones game,
And every word you speak,
Softly begins to stain your week-
Every word you say,
And every mistake you can make-
Is all aware for all the eyes
Of all the lies and ties of friends
That break and make and take away
They engulf this place behind their masks
They ask a different way, but its all the same-

I just cant seem to understand,
If I held the world, within my hand-
Everyone would sit and wonder,
Who, What, Where, How, and When.

There is no such thing as 'my own business'
No such thing as 'your own busniess'
Its very rare these days to find a smile that is real-
And it seems like even in a coperate office,
They talk more shit than you know how to deal with.

]]> 161709 2008-10-10 08:26:15 My indecisions run my confusion-
As I follow each call on the morning dairy,
I make the wrong decisions
And fall in correct inperfections,
Dieing to make the sun fall on me:
Just to end all this misery,
That engulfs my mind
With scentless indulgences
That run a muck in my eyes-
The ideas I run and feel inside
Cant help but ruin my life.

Angels call me out-
Break me apart,
Into nothing but a heart
The blood runs through my veins
And each pulse drives my eyes
To follow the repetitive rain
And keep my love intact-
By breaking me into pieces
Until the world ceases
And the angels dream-
They dream of someone else.

The broken little dreams
Of all the children seems
To cut into me,
Like some lost imagination
And break apart, my heart-
I can't seem to find,
The place I am looking for
It just seems like,
Its all worth dieing for-
But when the sun rises
And dies a night later,
The midnight moonlight
Brightens my senses,
And gives me reason
To find the treason-
That has been placed
Upon my fragile heart
Until it all becomes clear-
And I fall… and I fall apart.

]]> 160716 2008-10-08 06:48:39 The World Outside My Window

The world outside my window,
lost within the green-leafed trees,
hidden behind the glowy sunlight-
the ground covered in thick moss weeds.

Nature's way, left unkept
seems only natural, to eyes unslept-
to be just as the butterfly-
to learn to ride and fly so high,
to live amonst the rainy 'soon
and the howl of the midnight moon.

to join the absolute,
the golden beauty of nature's jewels:
the sun, the sky, the ocean too
is all the beauty i can offer you-
but take my hand and join my stand
we can run a muck forever-
never to be discovered by the
cruel roots of man,
never to deal with humility, ever again.


I am one, with god above,
the angels touch-
and natures love.
Forever to shine in warm sunlight,
forever to grace this place,
with the beautiful face-
that you and I can trace:
back to our love
that will forever inherit
this paradise.
 
]]> 159818 2008-10-06 07:29:28 a new beginning
a golden ray of sunlight
seems a bit decieving-
each ray of hope,
each sign of sighing;
brightens up  the day,
it brightens down your face-
saves you from your innocence:
and that cold, bitter taste.

if for but a moment in time,
i could feel your heart beat-
i could feel your warm smile
and the tangle of our feet-
if but for a moment,
the world seemed to rise
but then without a whisper
it all fell to its demise.

tomorrow is golden,
today is the past-
let us dream a new beginning
and hope it always lasts.
the future holds open arms
full of love and compassion
a dream away from painful harm-
and a love within heated passion.

there is a pathway to love,
but no one knows where,
there is a brick built bridge,
leading me to the one i adore-
but no one knows for sure,
if i will land with both my feet,
firmly planted to the ground.

]]> 156992 2008-09-29 09:30:42 A frozen winter morning,
My heart is frozen still-
Once warm and beating,
Now cold and seeping,
Sinking deeper in my soul.

One day brings another,
The sun rises once again,
Brings a little warmth to me in the end-
And even though I feel its heat
My feet are still frozen,
And my arms are stuck to the seat-
I may never move again,
Never to feel free again-
Lost within the end of it all
Lost within the freezing breeze
That tremours through my soul,
Calling out for you-
But you've gone deaf,
And may never hear my call-

The world is blind to sadness
And full of deep remorse
Every girl smiles a fake smile
And every boy talks awhile-
Saying this and that and how are you
But in the end its just to do-
A simple little sentence to warm
My fragile heart-
Just a little voice to keep my soul afloat-
A dream within a dream,
A voice within my mind-
I can dream of all the times
When I once felt that maybe,
Maybe, there was a chance
But that’s all gone-
And im alone at last.

]]> 154931 2008-09-24 08:03:39 Gently glide my skin-
My blood begins to boil,
Raging from within.

To hold your hand,
To be your man-
To be the man you call for,
The one that you adore-

For you to feel the way I feel
To see the things I can dream
The space I need to fill
Is in the happiness you give me still-
Sometimes I sit and wonder
If I deserve such splendor-
But when you place your hand in mine
Nothing else matters, there is no time
No space or face or entity,
That could ever take me from my glee-
My heart shines bright for you to see
That even in the darkest night
You are my shining light-
You are my golden sunrise
My pride and joy,
You are everything,
That I enjoy.
]]> 154504 2008-09-23 09:42:04 'no one could ever deal with you,
put up with you,
all your insecurities too-
your sensitivity and your face-
your such a little waste of space-'

i wish i could leave without a trace,
without a face or a name-
without a feeling of remorse
not a single person feels the same
but i know that i do not own a name
and every single tear i weep
falls across this empty seat
where i once sat, but never more
to curse this orchard
or bless these halls.

i feel like the plague
and only one had the cure-
but even her, i could not lure,
sometimes it seems,
that even in my dreams;
even if i could hold you
and call you my own-
it would not be fair
to see you in my stare,
when you could be
so much happier to see
someone elses face
and never have to waste
another single stretch of grace
just to spend a little time
alone with me to keep my mind.

i feel like a pile of shit-
a final destination for me to fit,
Beneath the sand and broken time-
A little place, where you will find:
a broken little soldier boy,
looking for another broken golden joy.


]]> 151826 2008-09-16 16:53:00 my beautiful moonlight
the sun is setting
the moon is checking
to see if its all clear to come out tonight.

good night lovely
good morning angel
theres something in my eyes
but i think its just a tear of joy
now that i can finally have you
you can finally be mine
i can finally jump into the skies and cry
i can finally scream from the highest mountain:

"Good morning Juliet
good morning, my love
good morning my beautiful
my angel from above!"

Hello my juliet,
good day, my dear
everyday that swims away
is a day i spent with you-
there is nothing i'd rather do
then be with you
no one id rather see
than to keep my eyes on you.

you make my heart race
with that look on your face
the gleam in your eyes
is my one and only drive
to be the greatest and the best
to be better then all the rest!
to be your Romeo,
right and true-
Dearest Juliet,
I Love You.
]]> 149124 2008-09-10 07:16:59 lonely graces, unknown faces-
sinking deeper, falling fast-
my life is over, dead at last.

i saw the morning sunrise
glisten in your eyes
but now theyre full of flies
and i cant help but cry.
your beauty, your grace-
left outside this place,
this lonely sanctuary
is the tomb of all thats merry.

once upon a time,
i used to always smile
but now i've lost the will
its my happiness you kill.

i am a dreamer, without a heart,
a famous actor, without a part-
i am a writer, without a pen,
a lover, without a women.

i ask the morning graces
why put pain in all their faces?
why turn the world upside down
and give the world a frown?
happiness has seeped away
looking for a better day
but those days are long away
please come back, come and stay.

my heart is full of empty spaces,
lonely graces, unknown places-
in the end the world falls still
living in a love that kills.
]]> 148184 2008-09-08 08:36:36 a dream within a dream-
all my mind is a burning fury
searching for the love it needs.

uncertainty can kill,
dreams supress the will-
an old man lies on a dirt made road
sinking deeper in the mold
no one knows, no one sees
what is life; i could never believe
the sun rises, on a new day-
my heart smiles, in a new way.
take my hand, through the sand
run your fingers through the grain-
loving you, keeps me sane.

i live to see you,
i breathe to be you
one and one, still is one
laying in the midday sun.
your eyes are pure,
your heart is strong,
you are the cure,
to my self-destruction.

you are far to beautiful,
nice, and soft-
your fragile smile;
hiding in your midnight loft.
but as you take my hand
and lead me there,
i follow you, i cant help but stare-
taking me to a brand new land.
full of beauty, love, and life-
gives me reason, to hate this knife;
and never want another thing
not an object, or human being-
i want you, my juliet
i cherish the day...
our two souls met.
]]> 147173 2008-09-05 22:27:50 Single for the first time in over two years...
Happy and yet a minut bug crawling the the underbelly of God himself.
I believe that risks bring happiness.
I can only pray that my world will one day humm to the tune of "Aeroplane over the Sea; by Neutral Milk Hotel."

This is what I wanted wasnt it?
Yes indeed, but I'm waiting for the sweet release.
Then I can continue my path down the lovers crawl.
What a day... what a day...
Yesterday was the happiest I've ever been,
Today is the worst I've ever been-
Tomorrow... I can only wish for what I want tomorrow to bring.
]]> 146913 2008-09-05 09:12:36 Thanks to the pure luck of a romantic French class we share together. My life has been revamped and everything I ever wanted may just become mine yet!

But the question I raise for all you ladies out there is how do I deal with my current relationship? I don't love her like she loves me, and I am not about to sit down and marry her. I want to let her go nicely, considering that it will hurt her so immensly; but I am not really sure how to go about it.

All I do know is that I may finally be happy!
I can't believe its true, but my Juliet may finally be mine!
I wish I had a bucket to fill with the ground she walked on... but she does'nt walk very far on the pedastal so far up in the sky that all I can see are her beautiful eyes.

I've never felt like this in my entire life; and while it scares me, leaves me open, vulnerable, and maybe even alittle fearful... all I have to do is remind myself that its all worth it. And if I could have anything in the world.... she is all I need.


]]> 146446 2008-09-04 06:39:48 Dearest Juliet,

when i met you, i fell-
when i saw you, i could tell,
the next time i see you,
i can't stop but wish to,
hold you, hug you, never let go
my heart is yours, for you to sew-
help me feel what i've been lacking
a loveless life, its time for packing-
a change, a move, its time now dear
please come here, and have no fear;
hug me, hold me, keep me near.

your eyes are dark and beautiful
your hands are soft and gentle-
i've dreamt of you so long,
just to hold you so close
i've dreamt of you so long,
to kiss you gently on your nose.

i cant shake this feeling
i cant even write this ryhme,
my thoughts are all engulfed in something-
something i thought was lost in time.

so excuse me for asking,
but these things i do-
may you, please you;
take me as yours?
I will never do you wrong
fill your room with flowers,
tastey treats, and lovers.
you and me i can show you still-
what i've been trying to fill,
is an empty place in my heart
a place quite, snug and warm
with nothing that can fill this hole
except for you, you make me whole.

please, juliet, hear romeos call
please, be my juliet-
catch me from this endless fall,
let me sing out to the gods
a single kiss has left me bliss
waiting for my gentle wish.

Love,
Romeo
]]> 142989 2008-08-26 21:19:58                   Then I heard a creek come from down the stairs, it sounded like the front door opened. I quickly ran into the bathroom to grab a few peices of toilet paper to lay across my arm to keep any drip from falling down.
                 "Denim! Are you home? It's Dad." I could hear my Dad yelling from down below, as he took off his shoes. "If your here, come down, I want to talk to you."
                 "One minute! Just putting on a new shirt." Well I was putting on a new shirt, but that was only because the old one was covered in a red crust that I could not possibly hide.
                 And so I calmly went down the stairs, my hands and arms behind my back, my arm quivering from the friction of cloth against my newly made wounds.
                 "Are you feeling OK?" My dad inquired, curious of my random squirms.
                 "Oh, just fine, I replied" Unsure of how to answer.
                 "You dont look so well. Maybe I'm just tired."
                 "I'm sure thats it, Dad."
                 "Well, anyway, I just wanted to let you know that your grandmother went into the hospital, grandpa found her at 4am this morning of the ground convulsing. I guess she overdosed on Ambient or something. She hasn't woken up yet."
                 I stood in shock, maybe even in fear, at the news that was presented before me. I could barely withstand hearing those words again, no... not again.
                "Hey Denim, whats that on your arm? Are you bleeding?"
                "Oh, that" I shivered in pain, "Its nothing. Just a little cut I guess."
                "We'll let me see it, I want to make sure its not infected before you put a bandaid on it."
                "Oh, no, thats OK Dad, thanks anyway."
                "No, please, I just want to make sure your cut wont get infected."
                He took a quick jab for my arm, he missed the sleeve but rubbed hard against my wounds.
                "Ouch!" I couldnt help but yell.
                "Whats that? Denim! Let me see your arm right now!."
                I could feel my eyes holding back a single tear as I slowly raised my sleeve to reveal the numerous cuts and slashed across my fore arm.
               "Denim... explain yourself."
                "I... I... I..." I didn't know what to say.
               "Well... I..." Words just couldn't escape my mouth.
                Finally I broke down into a waterfall of salty tears, collapsing into my fathers arms.
"I..." Sniffles, "I just couldnt stop. One, and then another, and then another... it made me feel... alive."
               I can't even begin to fathom the intensity of what I said.
              "Well... I..." My father was hesitant, but proceeded to speak anyway, "Is this because of grandma?"
              "Well... some of it. SOme of it is because of school, and work, and... just life."
"I've been doing it for a few years now; every time I just can't figure something out; or I feel like complete shit. I do it, and I feel better... so much better."
              A saw then something I never thought I would ever see in my entire life. It was like the entire spectrum of light, all condensed to the width of my father's wide eyes.
             And then, without a whisper or a word, my father stood up, took a step back, looked me straight in the eye and said, "Your mother will be wondering where I am, so I better get back to the hospital to see your grandmother. If your up for it... you can come later if you like."
I just stood there, mentally deconstructed and naked in front of my father; until finally I had to speak.
            "OK... I guess I'll see you later." I squeezed out my tight, exausted throat as I begged myself not to burst into tears again.
           "Alright, Well... Bye."
           My father turned around, walked out the door, and shut it carelessly behind him.
          "Well... there's only one thing left for me here." I whispered to myself.
          And so I walked back up the stairs, an evil grin upon my face, and made my way to the door that I had just recently closed; as if just to gaze upon the luminous letters painted across the door:

                "And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
                 Shall be lifted - nevermore!"

             And so I opened the gateway, and looking deep into the darkness, I saw a single shimmering light... my eyes fixated upon it... I walked to it, entranced by its singular beauty.

             And now, laying across this god forsaken floor, I find myself broken... frayed, alone. But not for long; for soon I will be with everything I could ever want to be.
             And so I enter into the abyss... the lifeless progression of nothingness that no one could ever possibly imagine.

           And into the shadow my soul shall lay,
           Silently followed by Deaths cruel way-
           his way I follow, for a better tomorrow,
           to put a final end, to this bitter, bitter day.


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]]> 142732 2008-08-26 06:34:13 and I can feel the sun rising-
just as you next to me,
raise your head to kiss me.
We embrace, and fall down,
cuddling in puppy love-
a morning left to share some time
before its up and leaving Nine.
When the morning dew surpasses
I walk you to your car-
and god you look so beautiful
staring at the stars from where you are.
Your eyes are green like rose leaves
your hair as soft as dreams-
even with my pet peeves,
your still the one I love.
And as you leave, I wave;
and you blow a single kiss-
and when it reaches my cold skin
its your loving flame I miss.

So, my dear, please know this:
I love you more than anything
more than the world could ever see-
but to try and let them know tonight
I'll scream it from the trees.
]]> 142387 2008-08-25 13:01:36 And the light shines through
I’ll know that you are with me
With every little thing you do.

The days grow long and lonely
Whenever I must say goodbye
I feel like I am drowning
With the emptiness I feel inside.

Pull me above the waterline
Keep my heart afloat
Hold your hands in mine
And erase my fears and doubts.

When the worlds collide
And the skies rain down upon the sea
Be my guiding light-
Only you can set me free.

If the world should cease to be
And the skies were filled with flames
I’d hide with you beneath the sea
So everything would be the same.

Every day I love you more
As if I could adore
A girl as beautiful as my love
Anymore than I do so sure.

]]> 142286 2008-08-25 07:15:16 broken windows on the porch-
a friend once close, but now alone
nothing left to heal my bones.

when the night turns chill
and the world stands still
a charcoaled dress
to wear the mess
lost when her heart laid still.
her love was my hue,
my shining rainbow-
the brightest sunshine
i could ever wish to hold
i held her close, never to let go
i held her forever, even in the cold-
her eyes shut, and i said goodbye
to many tears, to simply cry-
lost along an empty road
even still, we drew the crowd
who stood around and watched us
say our final goodbyes-
before i fell and cursed the sky.

i hold her sweater, sitting here
watching preist and worshipper
walk along the casket path
reminding me of sylvia plath-
they took a glance, said goodbye
no one, could ever know why
when we said goodbye,
it would be our last
but i gave up, way to fast-
perhaps i could of saved her
perhaps we could of tried
but perhaps she was better off
and in the end she died.

the sun is rising, in the east
i see her shadow, against the wall
i can see her standing still
never again, to get my fill;
the only memory i can hold-
lost within the midnight cold.


]]> 140894 2008-08-21 12:52:53 the sky was raging full of life-
i saw the angels come to me
and whisper in my ear:

'oh young man i see you there
staring up to us from way down here
your eyes are pure like snowflakes
no one could ever change-'

they flew down past and waved hello
and i just sat and watched them glow
the rain poured down and filled my cup
and so i sat and drank it up.

their pure and holy golden love
shining down from high above
froze my heart and skipped a beat
and next to me, they made their seat.

'young man i see you there
staring up to us from way down here
your heart is full of love and thought:
a sign that you cannot be bought-
and so i see within my mind
a darkness yet i cannot find
so please come here,
let two be pure-
and lay your tender lips on mine.'

and so i kisssed her,
of course i did-
and when we kissed,
my lips, began to melt.
i looked deep into her eyes,
and saw the beauty of the skies-
and in the trance she placed on me
she picked me up, and made me three.

my heart, my soul, my body too
she took it all; and made a stew
she filled me up with all her thoughts
and in the end, i knew it was
the golden angel of my dreams
she came down to be with me.
she said once again,
in a slow tender voice, that only i could hear:

'young man i saw you there,
staring up from way down here-
but now i'm here and all is well
come join me now, your Juliet.'
]]> 140047 2008-08-19 12:17:40 "Welcome home my slave." I proclaimed as she walked in through the back door, her hair soaken wet, covering her eyes; her white shirt pressed against her body, letting her perfect nipples poke right through the lace top she was wearing.
"How may I please thee, my master?" My eyes began to glow as she laid down across my couch... gently pulling up her miniskirt to reveal her beautiful paradise.
She gently began to massage herself, playing with herself as she gently rubbed and curressed her thighs... licking her fingers and then sticking them inside of her.
I just stood in awe as my slave began to please herself, moans echoing out from her mouth like god herself was groaning with pleasure.
As I approached my slave.. she pulled on my belt and my pants fell, revealing my throbbing hard on... she took me in her mouth as she continued to pleasure herself, moaning deep into my hard on; I could feel it vibrate, head to base... vibrating with her pleasuring moans.
She devoured me as I took a hold of her hand and replaced it with my own... my fingers sliding deep inside of her beautiful paradise... her eyes rolled back into her head as she continued to lick me up and down like the worlds largest lolipop.
My legs began to shake, "Oh my slave, such a good girl... you are so good at pleasing master."
And between the slurps and garggles I heard a faint murmur: "Anything for you, my master."
I slowly fell down into her arms, her legs wrapped around my waist.... we kissed with such passion i could feel my hard on grow stiffer as my head gently began to massage the very outside of her paradise; gently parading inside of her. Her back began to arch as I slid deep inside of her... her entire body wrapped around me as I lifted her up and leaned her against the wall... I couldn't help but stare as my hard on slide in and out of her paradise.... her paradise soaked as if a rainforest shower had just covered her... and so it covered me.
I held her close and continued to thrust her, both of us loving every minute.
Minutes gew into hours as we made love across the wall, on the floor... the kitchen table, breakfast bar... we made love every place we could reach.
And then my slave took me in her mouth again.... just as I was about to explode... and as I felt the eruption coming I told her, and she replied "I am hungry for my master. Feed your slave the elixir of life."
And as she said that, i felt her suck harder then she ever has... and in that moment i felt the pressure of a volcano about to explode... and as I did i could feel it drip into her mouth; I moaned and groaned and grabbed her hair... and as she licked up the last bit of my oozy pleasure; i fell backwords onto the ground in absolute delight. ]]> 140001 2008-08-19 09:55:39 Everyday I wake up, every day I go to sleep(most of the time), and every day I dream of moments past, peices of the time i shared with all the different people that have helped to mold me to who I am today.
I have had good relationships, bad relationships; i've made friends and foes; but through it all I would never give up a second or a memory, not a single one.
My life is a dreamboat of experiences and moments; each moment leading up to the next - each moment followed by another, until we grow to the final moment of our lives; the final breath, the final striking moment of our lives before it is all over, and what happens next? We may never know.
We have been molded, created, shaped; maybe even prepared - just to live long enough to experience the final blow of our lives.
I wish that we could all see our own funerals; just to see if we are truly missed or if anyone even bothers to show. Each peice of time leads to the next, a never ending train; connected at the hip... following this ongoing track until all the rails become rust and fade away, and we derail. ]]>