So i am looking forward to all the aforementioned events in the future, but for now i am focusing on the present,
I started yet another part time job today, I have 3, I got on very well with the clients, the woman i clean for Audry is very nice, and good company, she is a quadraplegic, but i can forgive her staunch christianity, attempts at conversion and political views because in general she is a really lovely person,
So wages went straight into my very nasty but oh so good nicotine habit, All in all i'm feeling pretty damn good, this is my blog moved from blogspot to here, i enjoy that i can privatise at will and revel in the fact that it is untraceble and so not read by people i know,
I'm coming into my own, freedom is like coffee, you just can't drink enough, and if you stop you get a headache, I am so choked on freedom and it is fantastic, My dog is walked the house is clean, as is my own room, life is pretty good, I think i'll visit some friends this weekend, not the usual folk,
i'm feeling a bit daunted about visiting the usuals actually, before my head got sorted i did a pretty major blow up, which happened for a good reason but i let it out on the wrong person, who i owe an apology to in person cos email is impersonal, and i am dreading the necessary conversation i am going to have to have with one of my other mates, .....it has to be done and it wont be pretty,....*shudders
so i might go see Firefaerie, i need a lift to work on monday so shes the person to ask, after nearly 9months of not speaking were slowly drawing back together and becoming friends, which is nice, but i'm worried SA may get insecure and think im ditching her, Im totally not, i know where my loyalties lie and i wouldn't choose a fickle dumper over a loyal friend, but i still want to keep the peace between the 2 of them,
For the record, Firefaerie is someoe i was friends with for 10 years before we fell out really badly, and SA-Satans Angel is someone iv'e been friends with for 5/6 years who is propably the most decent and sorted person i know,
Mind you she did say i was the sanest person she'd ever met so maybe shes just a little bit crazy :) Crazy is good, i like and can deal with crazy being so myself,
to those who emailed me yes i am aware that i got the Darwinian thery slightly wrong, -grins sheepishly- out of school for 2 years and my mind is already fading, not that i have used ANYTHING i learned in school during my time out of the establishment, I reckon its more of a social adeptness that is taught, it is more important to learn how to function within a school society than the actual education, so its not such a shock going out into the world,
Unfortunately i did go to an absoloutely shite school which did nothing whatsoever to prepare me for life, I'm utside the system anyway so its not such a problem, but it will be im guessing when i move to edinburgh in september, possibly glasgow but most likely edinburgh,
But before i do that ill be spending my last free summer in amsterdam, Guess Why, and going to as many festivals as humanly possible,
When i do move i cannot take my dog, hes a pyrennean and it would be cruel to confine him to the size of flat we can afford, SA and I are moving together :D So instead i will have a cat, whose name i have decided, will be sesame, i will talk to my cat as i do my dog and i will sing it the songs i write, show it the videos i make, and the bastard wont give a fuck but it will make me feel better,
Cheers to my future and my Sesame to be
Rogue xxxx
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