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I hate how things have turned out lately!! I listen to music on the radio and a song comes up about life or love (so basically, every single song!) and all the sudden I'm ready to cry because I know how screwed up the relationships with my best friends are right now! Music used to be my biggest outlet and all the sudden I realize I hate it now! The silence screams at me to just flip on a CD or something but I can't do it anymore! And all because of one huge accident!
I can't figure it out because he's my best friend and I care about him so much.... but at the same time, things have been so messy and screwed up between us that I hate even thinking about it! I want to be able to move on and never look back, but I know that I can't. Neither of us can no matter how hard both of us try!
Last summer was the worst summer I've ever had to live through in my whole life. I'd recently been through my first brake up that I actually cared about, I was still recovering from my accident, I was isolating myself from all my friends and family because of one stupid guy. Through all of that he was there for me. He was one of the two people that helped pull me through that. There's some things that you can't go through with a person and not end up attached. Well that's one of them.
It makes me so mad because had Damon not been such a jerk and been there for me, had he kept his word and stayed in touch and not just completely withdrew himself from my life..... if he hadn't lied to me, over and over again about his feelings for me.... this never would've happened. Nothing would've happened between me and Nate in the first place because me and Damon would still be off limits. I wouldn't have let myself like him. He would've have started liking me.
And then Damon gets so upset over the whole thing like he had nothing to do with it! The other day I was at his house and it was me, Damon, Nate, Damon's family and this other girl (I don't remember her name.) Well most of the time I was there, I was hanging out with Nate. However, I really needed to talk to Damon so I went downstairs to see what he was doing. Basically here's what he told me: he wouldn't hang out with both me and Nate at the same time. He would with one or the other, but not both. Whenever I'm with both of them at the same time and talk to Damon all that much, Nate starts blaming him for everything: his parents fighting, me not being with him, everything. And last of all he said "You'd better go find Nate or he'll be upset with both of us."
What the crap!! That is not fair! I wish both of them would just get together, lay everything out on the line and figure it out! I don't want to be together with Damon anymore. I don't want to be together with Nate anymore. However, I want to have a friendship with both of them and they're both standing in the way of that!
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Posted by ReD_MooN on 2008-07-14 15:33:09 | Rating: | Views: 103
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Tell each of them to talk it out, punch it out, whatever and get over it. Tell them YOU want them to work it out & get past the whole thing.
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Posted by Faith
on 2008-07-17 14:16:39
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I wish it was that easy! These guys have been doing this for a LONG time and no matter what I say neither of them are willing to budge!
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Posted by ReD_MooN
on 2008-07-18 09:21:35
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what are you talking about?!?! we are not like that at all!!!
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Posted by taterbaby
on 2008-07-18 14:18:48
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well that is NOT what damon says so....?
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Posted by ReD_MooN
on 2008-07-19 01:14:29
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