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I was done here. I figured, my life is so.... wrong, right now, even writing has lost it's magic.
But then I thought of something: If I stop writing, it means the world won. I let people take the thing that means the most to me away, and I'm done with it. I'm going to keep writing here even though I would like nothing better than to stop. It's my form of fighting back.
One of my friends told me once "Strrength isn't something you learn, or are born with; it's something you choose." I've thought about that alot lately. I guess I'd givin up. It's not like me to do that...
Something else that has helped me alot are the comments and emails I've received from the people at this site. The support is almost overwhelming. I appreciate it so much and I want to let you guys know that I am sincerely grateful for that.
So I'm going to fight this through like every time before. Choosing strength has let me survive in situations that I couldn't have before, so maybe it can pull me through this too.
One of these days I'm going to find a way to let everything go:
My secrets...
My pain...
My fear...
My love...
My mistrust....
Everything.
Everything is going to change. It has to. Something is going to give and I am just praying with all might that my life won't fall apart when it does.
So I will keep writing.
I'm choosing strength.
I will fight through this with everything I've got.
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Posted by ReD_MooN on 2008-07-10 17:05:42 | Rating: | Views: 74
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Great blog, remember to never give up. Some of lifes greatest treasures have been found just after the storm.
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Posted by christianity247
on 2008-07-10 18:21:34
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go you :)
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Posted by taterbaby
on 2008-07-12 01:23:57
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Good for you. I like that "strength isn't something your born with..." quote. That is very wise and you are doing the right thing by choosing strength. I am so glad you decided to stay on. I enjoy reading you blogs. Good luck. I need to do what your doing sort of clean out the closets of my old angst and forbidden thoughts and issues. Thanks for your blog. Take care.
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Posted by Faith
on 2008-07-12 13:13:24
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I am so happy that you are staying on. I have a lot of dark thoughts too. But I don't put them on here. I think that I should let people see that side of me.
I am so happy you are using strength.
Keep at it RedMoon, their are many on here who love you and I am one of them.
Take care of you.
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Posted by Fancie
on 2008-07-12 13:25:03
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