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| A class, a guy, and a best friend's yellow dress |
Well basically this week has stressed me out pretty bad. I'm enrolled in 5 college courses as well as some other high school classes and I can not handle it. I'm thinking I need to drop the AP history and english. Sadly.
I've been having a hard time with binging again which I hate more than anything in the world. When I started Ana I lost about twenty pounds, then when I started getting better I gained about ten back, then lost those ten over the summer. Since school has started up again I've had to spend the majority of the day sitting in a desk. To make matters worse, I've been stressed. VERY stressed. When I get stressed I either over eat, or don't eat. I went through hell to get ana out of my life and I refuse to have her back so I have gained four pounds in the past month and a half.
There's a guy in my life right now (we'll call him "Z") and he is so amazing to me! He understands so much about me that most people don't. He doesn't KNOW everything, but he doesn't need to. He understands me anyways. He knows that i need space and that i'm very bipolar about people being close to me. He is ok with me being so excited to see him and talking for hours one day, then the next three days not saying a single word to him because I'm panicking over the closeness.
He means so much to me. Maybe in a few years when we're older and I feel ready to be in a relationship that will turn into something really special. I hope so. Wrote a poem about him yesterday but I can't decide if I want to post it or not. We'll see
One of my old friends it taking me to homecoming this saturday and I'm really really excited! I haven't seen him since I moved!! I'm borowing my best friends dress that I've been in love with since the frist time I saw it. She wore it to a dance last year and looked absolutely stunning. But that's just her. And she's smaller than me so I'm still deciding if I'm wearing it, but i'm 95% certain :]]
God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I can not change, the COURAGE to change the things I can, and fhe WISDOM to know the difference
Peace everyone!
I'll write as soon as I can, I've just been super busy!
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Posted by ReD_MooN on 2009-09-17 23:22:09 | Rating: | Views: 18
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