i have the weirdest, strangest dreams but i know that they relate to my life..like the other night, i had a dream that i was having sex with my dad...yes, a sex dream with my DAD...and when i was having this dream i was thinking, wow, i shouldnt be having sex with my dad but i want to...well i  no your all thinking that im some sick imbred child..BUT i dont even have a good relationship with my dad, i see him about once a year and he calls me maybe once a month...if im 'lucky'...well i'll go into detail about this dream and if you dont want to read it then go straight to the next paragraph after this one.

me and my dad were immersed in water, under a bridge at night, with a pillar about 10 meters away from us...i had my legs around his waist and we were naked together, holding each other.  he says to me, 'i want to make love to you' and the thoughts running through my head were that i SHOULDN'T do this but i WANT to but although i want to, i dont want to because i know that i shouldnt...but we did anyway...

and when i woke up, i was like omg, yuck, i had a sex dream about my own father, who i hate! but anyway i know that it is telling me something in my life, it relates to some stuff happening in my life...no im not having sex with my dad by the way...but i take my dreams seriously and it definitely relates to whats happening in my life....

another dream i keep having is really bad, its in different situations but everytime i im trying to save someone because they're set alight and their skin in burning and melting off them like candle wax and their cheeks just start melting down, it kinda reminds me of Salvador Dali and his melting clocks, but anyways, im just watching these people and i cant do anything about it...

last night they were native americans and i saw their teepees burning on a hill because my friend was throwing fire balls at them from her hands and so i was yelling at her to stop but she wouldn't stop as much as i screamed at her..so i ran over to the tee pees and i watched the people cry at me for help and once again their skin was melting off them and their eyelids were sagging down and on their hands that were grasping their faces, their fingertips were charred and burning.  i looked down and there were christmas beetles crawling out of the sand, someone screamed at me to run away because they eat your flesh, so i ran and so did my friend who was throwing the fire balls...when we stopped, my friend was trying to tell me that my feet were dirty, but i wouldnt believe her because i knew that she was trying to make me look down...i dont know why, but she just was...and then she tried to make me run through a river to clean my feet but i wouldn't because i knew they werent dirty...yes weird i know, but i don't know what it means.

another example of my melting faces dreams is at a cremetorium and we were in the oven thing and i was watching the peoples skin melt, like before and i wanted to help them but i couldnt but at the time, i didnt realise that my skin was probably burning as well...

i dont know what these burning faces dreams mean? does anyone have any ideas? because i dont really know what they're about...

i have the weirdest, strangest dreams, if  i told u half of them, you would all think i was a crazy pshycopath!  well i had noodle box for dinner, and now i feel kinda sick...and i've got a headache, i can feel a migrane coming on, im gonna go take something to make me feel better and start finishing some assignments or study or something...

i need a hug :(

byyyeee