I hate that you ruined my life,

And that i satisfied your needs,

And forgot about what i wanted,

What you did was wrong

Even though i didn’t realise it at the time

I hate your abuse,

your screaming and your put downs,

and the way you look down at me,

like i was dirt on your shoe,

as if i mean nothing to you.

I hate how you grab at me,

Like im some kind of object to play with.

Stop looking at me you sleaze,

And stop touching me as if i enjoyed it,

Because you know i don’t.

I hate how you keep calling me,

You haven’t learnt that you cant get everything you want.

It hurt me as much as it hurt you,

Did it even hurt you,

I hope so

I hate spending everyday alone,

And that i’ve been scarred so badly,

So that i can’t let anyone in.

It’s almost a perminant shield keeping me from danger

But it means im so lonely

I hate how i always take the blame,

Its my fault we have financial problems,

And that there’s no lunch today.

I give you the money i earn

What do i get in return?

Nothing but more blame.

I hate the names he gives me,

Sexy, baby, bitch, slut

I hate the names she gives me too,

They’re just as bad,

Fuckhead, fat, brat, skank .

Just to name a few...

I hate looking after you,

Like you were five years old,

Stop fucking complaining,

Im not some life fixing machine,

My life needs fixing too!

I hate how you lie,

They’re not misunderstanding,

They’re straight out lies,

I did everything you wanted,

What more do you want from me?

I hate how im so weak to these things

I hate that i need to cry

I hate that it affects me so much that i need to “vent”

I hate going through these days pretending im ok.

I hate this

I'm sorry that you had to read this crap, i read it back through and realised that i sounded like some suicidal 12 year old...but whatever, i just needed to let that out, im feeling quite crap at the moment