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Well this is my story :
I grew up in a family who hate God, who hate the church, who hate anything or anyone that has anything to do with the church.
I never questioned their beliefs that there was no God and it was all bullshit, i just went along with my family's beliefs. I never thought that i would ever believe in that supposed bullshit and that i would go along living my life without knowing of God.
About a year ago, i felt as though something was missing from my life, i couldnt figure out what it was. I had issues with anorexia, i was suicidal and depressed. I didnt let anyone into my life and became so closed off from the world, i basically hated everything about my life until a few months ago, i had to visit church for an assignment.
I went once and you know, it was kind of weird, i was like, what the hell, im surrounded by christians. But i'd never been to church before, it was nothing like i'd expected, i felt a slight change in myself, i was like, maybe this isnt such a bad thing, its a great way of life and even if, at the end of this life, i find out there is no God, it doesnt matter cuz at least im living a good honest, happy life.
So i went back for more and gradually, i joined in with prayer,song and more importantly i found God. Although i hadnt been at the church for more than 2 months, He was so much more than i ever imagined and He helped me through depression. So my assignment was over and i had no excuse to go to church but it was so intoxicating and wonderful that i just couldnt not go back.
So i told my family that i wasn;t goin to the church for an assignment anymore and they basically shot me, well not really...but basically. They hated me for my decision, they didnt accept it. My mum, who i still live with banned me from going to church becuase of her opinions of the church. And one thing that God has taught me is to honor what she says, even if i dont agree. Im not attending church, my family has taken the church away from me, but they can never take away God and the love that i have found and i pray for them over and over again, that in this life, my family can know God and love Him one day.
People say that God can move mountains but He can do so much more if you open your heart to Him.
He is so loving, intoxicated, exhilerating and the best thing thats ever happened to my life.
Being a Christian, especially in Australia, is hard, people dont accept you. Its even harder when your family dont support you. I look up to all Christians, i really do.
Well thats it i guess, thats my story. Me the athiest finding her reason to live and turning her life around. I dont mean to like preach or whatever but im so new to this and i find God so overwhelming and i had to talk about Him.
Well yeah, thats my story i guess
byyyeeeeeeeeee :)
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Posted by RamJet on 2007-10-14 03:45:59 | Rating: | Views: 79
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I had the same kind of experience I was depressed and suicidal now Im a christian yes your right god is intoxicating and he has brought me real peace.
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Posted by cillak
on 2007-10-20 02:30:18
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