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I just can't help it...

I'm so frustrated lately!
(Please note: This will be a mostly ranting post, so if you would rather not read about why I think my life sucks right now, then mosey on over to someone else's blog)

Computer:
I got a new computer recently. I killed my old one because I was stupid and left it turned on during a thunderstorm. When a power surge hit it, it fried my motherboard.

So my new computer was doing awesome. I have The Sims 2, and that ran so smoothly I was thrilled. But I really wanted the Seasons expansion pack for the game. So I bought it, installed it, installed the patch....and my game kept crashing. So I tried to play computer detective and fix the problem on my own.

Well, I've fucked something up on it now. I keep getting an error message (when I start my computer up) saying: Catalyst Control Centre: Host application has encountered a problem and needs to close. We are sorry for the inconvenience.

I've tried uninstalling and reinstalling the drivers. It isn't working. I am so frustrated I could throw my computer against the wall. I won't, but I really want to.

So when it's all said and done, I'm going to have to spend another $65 getting my computer repaired after spending $30 on a game that will not work. I know my computer can handle the game. I had this computer custom built to play THIS GAME well. (Seasons, I mean. Not just Sims 2). So I don't get what's wrong. I'm never buying another EA game after this though. I am through. If it takes this much work just to play a fucking game, it is not worth the hassle.

Boys:
I'm pretty much always doomed to have boy issues I guess. My town sucks for meeting guys because nearly all are either still in highschool or already married. There isn't the "college/just outta college" age range in my town. So I guess until I move, I'm stuck being single. I can't help it though: I get more and more aggravated every time I see another stupid girl from high school getting engaged and/or married and/or pregnant. I know I don't want kids right this instant, but I don't even have a boyfriend!

I put myself out there. I do stupid stuff like leaving my number for a cute waiter. I don't have many friends in the area so I can't rely on them to set me up with guys.

I don't do the bar scene because the one bar I'd consider going to is totally sketchy! (I asked a guy friend what he thought of the bar since he goes there sometimes, and he said it was the kind of bar where you have to keep your hand over/watch your drink).

I don't know what else there is to do. I've gone out on dates with guys I was interested in just to give them a chance. To explain that one further: I went out on a date with a guy even though I didn't consider him very attractive. He wasn't unattractive, but he wasn't attractive. He was middle ground. Well, we went out...but it just....didn't work for me. I was bored. and I found myself thinking (during our date) "please don't try to kiss me, please don't try to kiss me". Luckily, he didn't. I went out with another guy.....even though he's shorter than I would have liked....but we found out on our date that we didn't have as much in common as we thought. I would have given it another chance, but I've emailed him twice in the past month and never got a response.

Job:
Actually, I love my current job. But it's not a very practical one...and it isn't something I can do forever....so I need to start thinking about other possibilites once I move on. Hopefully, I'll also be moving away when I take the new job.

Life:
I just....I feel like I'm stuck.

...and now I'm going to finish writing an email.