Hey so I was just in a blogging mood...... this blog may be pointless and random...... LOL
Um so yeah........ I feel really immature right now. IDK why. sometimes I go through phases internally where I just feel really hyper and childish or something and it's kind of annoying. Also, now I have the urge TO WRITE IN CAPITAL LETTERS when blogging..... Ugh! Sometimes I feel so weird about myself you know? Like sometimes I get really scared that everybody thinks I'm strange or slightly mentally retarded or something but no one says it...... Also I hate the double personality I have. Like at school I'm the quiet, not-overly-social, kind of geek person (I'm coming out of that though) and at home I'm rambunctious and I speak my mind a lot and I'm just not afraid you know? Does that seem weird to anybody here????
Speaking of weird........ um yeah my friend.... gosh I'm kind of afraid she's adding to my somewhat unpopularity. She's one grade below me, which isn't a problem to me but somehow everybody at school thinks it's weird that I hang out with her, even though she IS my neighbor!!! Gish people are so weird!!! Like if I know her, why can't I hand out with her? But maybe I can answer my own question. I hate to say this, but really, she kind of embarrasses me. If you knew her you'd know that almost every day she goes through a weird phase.... and yeah.... she goes through this phase at school too. Sometimes she sings. Songs off her little brother's TV shows. In a variety of strange voices. Also she's always happy. Okay like I know being happy shouldn't be bad but she always seems like the really-exaggerated type of happy. And also she always announces certain facts about me without a problem (ex. "Guess what?!?!? Emily's an eighth grader everybody!!!" "Emily likes Michael Jackson music!!!"). And she isn't afraid to jump around and act all crazy (which at home I'm fine with cuz that's how I am at home, but since at school I'm so low-key...). Ugh! Now I feel so terrible about myself for saying this stuff but I'm sorry it's true!!!! I'm working on finding the strength to tell her that there are certain behaviors you DO NOT bring to junior high school. But you know she's my friend!!!! And also these behaviors are the very things she's told me she thinks are helping her make friends... which may be true but I'm not so sure. Cuz even her other friends told me that they thought she was the weirdest person they knew....
Moving on.... have you ever seen a teacher sync their iPod in class??? Well I had the opportunity to yesterday!!! My history teacher's really cool. I'm in her accel. class so she kind of lets us do what we want. Like she'll finish up a lesson, have us do some fairly easy work, then when we're done we can just talk and hang out and she really doesn't mind. So anyway yesterday was one of these times and so she put on her iPod and played some music (it was educational, but still it was cool [it was kind of like rappish sort of music]). And so then she was doing all this stuff and then she went and synced her iPod and it was so weird!!! Me and the girl next to me were just laughing cuz we never thought we'd see a teacher do that in class you know? LOLZ It was funny.
Well I think I better get off now.... still feeling immature.... it'll pass one day......
Joker foreva!!!!
IDK why I did that... LOLZ And here comes the childish feeling again.....
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