Now its official. The person doesn't want to deal with me anymore. Good thing it happened online. Knew him since high school. We alway have a situation where we and me would not talk to each other for a while and then I end up apologizing. I never know how to respond. He always says things that offend me, he always says that I get too offensive everytime someone says something to me. He says that I am too confusing to deal with. He says I am always clueless. He makes me the bad guy. I am confused myself. I am clueless. My depression is getting worse. He doesn't care about what I go thru at all. No one does but I don't really care for him anyways because he is very irritating. When I was feeling really depressed, he told me why don't I go and kill myself. He said he said that because he has lost patients with me and how does he deal with someone like me? He also tells me that his now ex-gf doesn't want to talk to me and I didn't do shit to her because I always get offensive or some shit. I haven't even talked to that girl since 2006.  I am very confused. I am very clueless. I hate the way I am and myself. I just want to die. Let me die. Why does this universe allow me to live? Why can't I choose death?