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I have a crush on this guy at school and work (I work at my school). I hardly see him anymore. He is on his externship. He will graduate soon and I won't see him anymore

. I liked the way when I first met him, he was a gentlemen. He nicely introduced himself to me, started talking to me very respectfully. I like the gentlemen type of males. I HATE the thuggish, gangsters, selfish, inconsiderate type of guys. I like females too so I consider myself Bisexual or BiCurious. I need to experiement to see what I like and stop dwelling on the past. Maybe I was just confused and bitter. I used to be the type that hates men but this crush just made me change that. The way he came at me in a gentlemen type of way made me feel special

. I am still extremely shy around him. He asked for my number, I don't know why I didn't give it to him. No guy ever did that to me before. Most guys were always demeaning me and belittle me. I fantasize myself hugging him, kissing him, him holding me in his arms telling me everything is ok. I would love to have a taste of his lips. I want to know what sex would be like. I want to know what sex would be like with him. I know it sounds crazy but I had got his card application and got his number. How I got his number? Well I work and deal with security card applications so I had his application and wrote his number down. I called the number and he answered and I hung up. Then He called back and then basically I told him sorry I have the wrong number, LOL. I didn't want to tell him its ME then he will wonder how I got his number. Urgg I don't know what to do with men. I want someone special but If I have that, I wouldn't know what to do with it. I feel like I will never have anyone. I need some compassionate love and sex NOW!!!! LOL!!!