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I really fucked up
I cant believe this guy think Im really gonna have his baby......
So I had been ignoring him because I couldnt face him, I knew that my mind was made up and it was'nt what he wanted to hear. So I was in class listening to the teacher talk about some boring Medical terminology of the body, when there was a knock on the door and behind it was some cop, The teacher stepped outside and started to talk to him, I saw them look at me and I got so nervous, My heart was beating so fast, Im pretty sure the girl next to heard it thump. It was 6:30 in the morning and the cop didnt look so happy.She called my name and explained someone wanted to speak with me outside. As I grabbed my things and walked out, all I could think about was the things I did in the past, and whether if it was coming back to bite me in the ass.  "Am I in trouble?" I asked. He just replied, "Just follow me." So I did and there was James, I asked him, was he stupid or was he dumb? I was upset that he even showed up to my school and the fact that he made it seem like I did something bad, all the people in my class probably think Im some felon. He thanked his partner and told him he'd see him tomorrow,He said to me "let's go, we need to talk." I was stuck in my ways and I really didnt want to go, I told him , "No Im going back to class." As I walked away , he grabbed me by the arm and yelled "LET'S GO." Im tough but not that tough, without a fight I got in the car, and he drove off. All I could think about was my classmates watching this from the window, probably thinking Ive been arrested. I started yelling at him, asking him what drug was he on, because I needed a hit? He said  " I told you, we needed to talk and there's something i wanna show you" I told him he was out of his fuckin mind. We arrived at this condo downtown, when I walked in...I must admit it was really nice, better than mine. He explained it was for me and the baby. I looked at him with confusion written all over my face. "I cant accept this, I told you Im not keeping the baby" "and even if I was, I have my own place" I just wanted to go home. I walked away and once again he grabbed me but this time It was met with a kiss
We Kissed so passionately, The way he touched me made me shiver, It was like a movie, something I will forever remember. I started to cry because I was feeling a way I knew I shouldn't and couldn't. I pushed him away telling him I cant do this with tears running down my face. He told me "let me worry about all of that." with that said we made love right their on the creamed colored plush carpet. I knew then that I was in love and by the looks of it, he might just be also.....
Posted by Pinknchanel on 2008-04-23 20:20:10 | Rating: n/a | Views: 138


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Posted by
lilmama56
on 2008-04-24 07:56:12
 
wow I know the struggle that you are dealing with....I also thought seriously about giving my little girl up in the end I didn't but I know it can be real hard
 
 

Posted by
Plakola
on 2008-04-24 10:13:02
 
Wow. This blog scene is pictured like a movie scene. Wow! I wish I had something like that.
 
 


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