"Erica, its funny, because you say it like you believe it"
I thought I did believe it.
Im not sure what to believe anymore.



My life,
everyones life,
is full of lies.

I dont belong here.
For that reason,
I will continue to fuck it up.
But dont worry.
When Im gone,
you wont have me to deal with
anymore.

I hope this is soon.
I need to leave one way or another.
Or I will continue to spiral farther
into the mess Im already in.
There is no life for me anyway,
it is basically over.

If this is life,
then I shouldnt be alive,
its not for me.
Im tired of letting you down.
Im tired of crying.
Im tired of wasting away behind all of my bullshit.
Im just tired.