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Delusional Hearts
Our poor delusional hearts seem to go through so much extra work and pain trying to get people that we think should love us to pay us some attention. Why don’t they love me? That’s a question that every one of us has asked at one time or another. We have all this love in our hearts......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-07 10:05:39 | Rating:

| Views: 121 | Comments: 16 | Tags: love

The Arrest
I had a few scrapes with the law before I actually got arrested. They were all alcohol or drug related and the police would slap my wrist and send me home due to my young age. They even kept me and three of my friends overnight once just to kind of scare us a little. We weren’t charged and......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-09 08:01:43 | Rating:

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The Male Delimna
Women often ask, “Why are men like they are?” “Why do they have such a hard time showing emotion?” My answer to you, my dear female friends, is that men are raised to hide their emotions. If we are not taught at home how to withhold our feelings then we learn the hard way......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-10 09:38:25 | Rating:

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First Trip to the Ocean
Living here in Indiana rarely affords someone the chance to see an ocean since we are miles away from either coast, but I finally did make the trek to the east coast to see the Atlantic Ocean when I was about twenty five. I made the trip to Florida in a nonstop overnight caravan to Orlando with......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-12 15:59:18 | Rating:

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It's Always Been Me
Days go by until they turn into a time. It seems like no one is touching my soul. I ask why screaming as in a pantomime and worrying about why this is so. I don’t cry, not that I think it is a crime, but the fault is mine and this I do know. I can’t lie.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-14 07:51:03 | Rating:

| Views: 118 | Comments: 11 | Tags: reflection

Another Odd Wreck
Anyone that has read me for awhile knows that I have had a few strange car wrecks. I have already told the story of the train and the Volkswagen, so I thought I might tell you about another wreck. This story happened the next year after I had hit the train with a Volkswagen. The summer after......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-15 05:28:16 | Rating:

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Another Odd Wreck (continued)
The other girl had not come out yet. I started to jump back in, but my friend had beaten me to it. As soon as he jumped in, the other girl popped her head out of the water. It turns out one of them had kicked out the side window and the other had kicked out the back window. Neither girl knew......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-16 03:23:42 | Rating:

| Views: 91 | Comments: 5 | Tags: Life

Contentment
I think I will just sit here…. …no deep thoughts for today… …there’s so much I could do here… …maybe it will go away… …there’s no guilt to be felt here… …so it’s here......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-17 05:29:30 | Rating:

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The Battle
I tire of the needs of this body, its never-ending whine for more. Food, sex, air…just some attention, like it’s a conscious less crack whore. I start my day with the need to pee, and its control doesn’t stop there. It needs and needs and then come the wants.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-18 05:26:29 | Rating:

| Views: 126 | Comments: 12 | Tags: life

Do We really Care?
Can we really care about each other? Can we care about someone and keep caring even though they no longer care about us? Lovers can come and go in and out of our lives; friends can come and go in and out of our lives. We say we care about them, but what happens if they are not returning the......Read More