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Hello all,
Well...it's January and the vacation is over. No more sleeping in until 2 o'clock in the afternoon! No more sitting around the house all day dreaming about nothing but my success in the music world! No more staying up until 4 in the morning perfecting my websites and answering emails. No more cuddling with my cats until they beat me to sleep first! No more staying up all night watching horror movies until they end up watching ME! The vacation is over. Well..before I tell you WHY the vacation is over, let me tell you about the vacation!
I boarded the plane. God was on my side and I prayed before the plane taxied onto the runway. I prayed that I would make it to my destination safe and sound. When I got into the sky, all I could see was night embracing me delicately. We landed in a large white mass called snow! Brr...what a transition from the dry cold to the wet cold. Oh boy, I'm gonna be sick now! My brother Ronnie picked me up from the airport at 1am. I got home, finally, happy to see my Mom and Dad and they just as happy to see their baby daughter arrive safely. We sat and talked for a while and then off to bed we all went.
DAY ONE: THE PARENTS
The next morning, it never fails, Mom has a nice hot breakfast waiting on me. I get up to eat breakfast and sat and talked to my parents all day, which is something I love to do and miss doing. The day turns into dusk and dusk turns into night...I sit and there, my parents have my undivided attention. Knowing that we will not all be here forever, I want nothing more than to sit with them and talk about all things even if it just the weather. Those without your parents living KNOW what I mean and you KNOW how important the little things are when it comes to having your parents around.
The FUNERAL:
Today is the day that I see my buddy Roni for the last time...EVER. You see, Roni passed away on Christmas Day. For years, after our 10 year class reunion in 1999, I have constantly wondered how my buddy was doing. Never bothered to try to reach out and call him from time to time because I believed that by the grace of God, he was doing fine. Never thought at the age of 37 that he would leave our existence forever and every. I took his life for granted. I thought he'd be around until we were all gray, but I was wrong. So wrong. As I walk into the church, grief held both of my arms, but not my legs. I was able to walk up to the casket to see him one last time. He lay there, peaceful. He was darker than I remember him and even looked about 20 years older than he actually was. I believe that death can be both ugly and beautiful at the same time. It's ugly because the last time the deceased is seen, is not how we want to see them. We agonize at the fact that they will no longer be around. We can't pick up the phone and call. We can't knock on the door and wait to see their face appear. They are GONE! It's a beautiful thing because God calls us when He is ready for us to be with Him. When we have finished out time here on earth, He calls for us. I'm sure that it's beautiful to be standing by God. I'll bet He holds you close and keeps you warm and that alone coupled with the fact that you don't have to worry about ANYTHING ever again is SO beautiful. So with this being said, I know that Roni is safe and warm. I see him in my mind and he is still and will always be in my heart. A true beautiful friend inside and out. The future class reunions will never be the same without him there. What kind of man can have this kind of impact on more than 100 people in a room? A GOOD man! God bless you Roni ( Please see memorium on my official webpage at www.pjaysongbird.spaces.live.com )
THE OLDEST SISTERS:
It's cold..there is snow...so lets shop! Today I spent time shopping with my two oldest sistern's; Donna and Norma. We had a wonderful time walking through the mall together. There is nothing like family. I don't care what anyone says. If you don't have family, you don't have SHIT! So you people out there who have brothers, sisters, mothers and fathers that you haven't talked to in years over some BULLSH**...you need to squash it and get that love back! There is nothing like being around people who have known you since you were in diapers. They know what you like..don't like. They know all about you and that is the kind of love I want to have around me. I love all my brothers and sisters. I don't care what they may have done or said bad about me, I know that no one will love me until my dying day like my family.
THE FINAL EXIT
Mom and Dad drove me to the airport and we sat and talked in the lobby until it was time for me to go. There is nothing like leaving your parents..not knowing when or if you will ever see them again. Call me a sap or whatever you want! I realize that family is love and there is NO ONE ON EARTH who will love you more than your own family! Not only is blood thicker than water, but when blood dries up, it leaves a stain. Off into the sky I go...thinking about the love I left behind. Praying to God to keep them all safe while I am away and until I return. I can't wait to get back home though because I have a life waiting on me. A husband.....4 cats....a job....school....and oh, my music.
P.E.JAY
"The Songstress"
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Posted by PEJAY on 2008-01-18 00:04:52 | Rating: | Views: 62
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You are lucky to have a family who loves you it i always hard to say goodbye to somone you care about but they know you loved them in the next phase would like to think they take the love we gave when we were there with them when they go I a sorry for your loss
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Posted by Mugglemom
on 2008-01-18 00:19:59
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Thanks for sharing your wonderful words of wisdom! My deepest sympathy goes out to you regarding your good friend.
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Posted by BunnieMarie
on 2008-01-18 01:25:45
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