Why the hell did I roleplay with Sarah? Why did I say "ok" to acting her girlfiend? I knew that I've been getting flashbacks everytime love is metioned, but I had to act as Ame, didn't I? Why was I so stupid? Why why why why why. Now Sarah's worried there's something wrong. I don't know weither to show her this blog or not. If I believed in god, I would pray. If I self-harmed, I would. But right now, I don't know what to do.