Welcome all to my brand-spanking new blog. I want to have somewhere where I can vent about things and clarify some of my thoughts on things, and this is where all is going to begin. Omphalos is of greek origin and means "a central point : hub, focal point." This blog is going to be a place to focus on everything that is going on in my life.

Yay. The process of getting this out is exciting! I feel as though I am opening a brand new book, one with a content that is yet to be determined (if that isn't my life to a T then I don't know how I would describe it haha)

First of all, I have had a lot of really productive, aweosme conversation with all my friends today. This week, and these past few weeks in fact, has been very stressful to me. I have had to deal with annoying people, disrespectful bosses, confused fucked-up boyfriend (singular haha, sorry to break the pluralism ^_^,) confused myself, and to top it all off what I feel is sensitivity and seriousness on my part. And a bit of pride too. Instead of just bottling everything up, however, as I am apt to do, I talked to my friends. I talked to gamerchica, who is really open about herself and was really supportive of me. I talked to oldschool, who gave me good advice. Cool older brother gave me really good advice too.

What has come of it? Well, first of all I want to stop being so sensitive. No, I can't change that, and I think it's good that I am this way (sensitivity is GREAT for observing the world, writing, eating foods, being sneaky -when it doesn't require grace hehe-, and sex)...I just need to forgive other people for not being sensitive and stop holding other people accountable for accidents they make against me. My roomate might talk sexual around my boyfriend, which she hasn't doen for a while but still, but at the same time she is always like that. That is just what she wants to talk about. I need to deal with it. Hah. And some people are assholes and jerky, like that guy I sat next to at the bar last night, but that is just how they are.

And on that guy, what a fucking prick. I wish I didn't run into people like that so often. He talks to me in a way that is extremely condescending, in fact he talks to everyone like that, and at the same time he doesn't seem to contribute that fucking much to anything. I mean, if someone is a bad ass, and they want to be condescending, that is fabulous. If you are an amazing individual, and you know it, and you want to look down on me, that is cool.

Wait, that shouldn't be cool. Ok, lemme start over:

If you are an amazing person, although I will not particularly enjoy being near you, then it seems more justified for you to be condescending. But if you are a scene-ish piece of shit short man, with DG glasses that are a bit too tacky for you to pull off, and a boring fucking repotoire of conversational topics, then you have no fucking right. No fucking right at all. People like you shoudl be subjected to years of gruelling manual labor so that you can get an idea of what it is to actually earn something and be respectable.

I wish I didn't constantly think about what other people would think about me. It serves me well, because I usually can get along with people well because of it and pick out baller gifts for people too, but I don't want to question myself so much. I just want to do what I think is right. I like myself and my judgement, and I want to follow it damnit!

This is really amazing/relaxing. *ahhh* (sigh of relief, inward of course. A 'soul sigh' so have you.)

Also, i don't know how I feel about diplomacy. Wait I do: right now I am feeling not so hot. I don't want to leave my family adn home, I don't want to move aroudn constantly. Writing is on my plate. Next to business.