Somehow in band this year, I seem to have attracted some rather unkind enemies. However, they're like undercover enemies because none of them will speak of dislikes to my face. So here's what I have to say to any of those who secretly hate me.
I don't think I am better than you. Or anyone else. And you know why I don't think this? Because I don't care about being the best. I did at one time; I no longer do. I love music. Beyond food and water and breathing, I love music. It is my world. Being the best or the worst doesn't change that. I still love it. So then why would I strive to be the best? It only angers people. I believe that my love of music is enough to make me at least decent, so I try for it, and that is it. I am not your oponent, trying to grab some staff position. I am not some anti-christ you need to defeat.
And most of all, I'd have to say, I am not your slave. A lot of you are better than me according to the band hierarchy; higher, more powerful. I give in to this. But it doesn't make you right, and it never will. It doesn't give you the right to be a bully so stop acting like one.
I, like most of you, have morals. And one of those is that I am extremely opposed to talking about people behind their backs. Now, in high school life, I am well aware that there is no stopping this. But I'd like people to know that problems should be directly dealt with. Not by complaining about someone in little secret conversations. If you can't say it to me, then don't say it at all.
Ultimately, I don't really get what the problem is. Maybe some of you need a scapegoat, maybe some of you just like bashing other people. Maybe some of you have a legitimate arguement against who I am. Whatever it is, say it. Don't pretend to like me, it's just dumb. We are not that different, I don't think. I'm not sure why I am some threatening enemy. Think it through, I'd love to hear some reasoning behind the hostility. I am here to make music and have fun, not to make people whisper while I walk past.
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