| $3000 rent, vacation, my pathetic souless life |
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It's 10:51pm and once upon a time that used to be when the night was getting started. Now I sit here thinking that I should probably get to bed shortly because I don't feel like being worn out all day tomorrow. I usually just sit here at night and just despise going to bed. It requires effort.........i'm supposed to brush my teeth and the sheets have been cold lately. Will I sit around my entire life not wanting to go to bed? Not wanting the day to end because I know i'll have to wake up to my alarm going off and working through another day of complications? Speaking of my alarm.......its still one of the old beep...beep... kind and i've wanted a new one since high school but haven't ever gotten around to buying one. guess its only something i think of once its blaring into my skull at 6:50am.
Anyway, i've felt like the hampster on the treadmill lately, not really getting anywhere. Once I get to summer i'll be fine......then I'll want to get out of the city and i have no car? I called a place in long island that has tent camping sites because i thought it would be cheap and nobody would be around. they sold out all of the 800 sites for the entire summer nine months ago!! can't do a fucking thing around here wihtout a million people already being there!! get me out of the fucking place for a weekend without it costing $1000 or taking 10 hours to get there!!
Well, guess I spend memorial day sitting in my 600 square foot, $3263.50 per month apartment wondering why the hell anybody would want to pay that much to live in a place where you have to fight just to walk down the side of the street..........and every 100 feet there is a 5 lane highway of traffic honking and speeding right at your pathetic souless life.
in case you couldn't tell.........i need a vacation.
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