My marriage was going to hell in a hand basket. I had stopped looking into a mirror because I disgust myself and I thought that I was an ugly woman. I was staying with some friends of mine because I was too embarrassed to tell them what was going on and afraid of what the aftermath would be. A friend that I thought was my friend introduced me to a wonderful guy which lead to me having an affair with him.

I don't know what to feel or how to react

I am having an emotional affair

with another man

We talk

no rush

to feel

my pulse

I blush

when he tells me

how beautiful I am

one day soon I will see

that I was

always the

Queen Bee

I miss my husband

I wonder does he miss me

I wonder if he cries in the dark

after seeing

families in the park.

What am I doing

Can't be presuing

I took a scared vow

For better or for Worse

Is this suppose to be a

curse

I long to feel love again

to be held again

to reassures again

Is this the plate that I have eat from?

Has fate decided to use me as meat to fuel her heat?

I can't leave

Can I leave?

I love him too much

Do I really love him?

Hell, I don't know what saying

or why I am playing.


I just know that right now

I am just too damn

Confused.

One Love