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Thursday night, I was restless and did not even know why. Mommie called and asked if she and my younger siblings could come and enjoy my cool air since hers decided to take a permanent vacation. Anything for Mommie. I prepared for my fam to come over. Just as everyone was getting settled, she tells me you need to get out of this house and have some real me time. Surprised by she said I did not question it. I got dressed without any strain. All dressed up.....where was I going to go? I decided to go to Divus that some of dear friends have visited and recommended. I walk in to find my 1 of my fave radio stations there holding a drawing. The music was right playing all my many emotion rhythms. I head for the bar. I was meeting Man Eater there because her oldest using the car for something. She told me that she would drive back that mean I could a drink if I choose to. I spot an familiar face and she saw me too. A church member from my grandmother's church. I asked familiar face what was of flavor of drink. She did not care. I ordered 2 sex on the beach. Every bar tender makes it different but once I sipped a little of my drink....I fell taste the single ingredient in it. I tipped the lady because she did on hellified job of making the drinks. I found a prime spot so that Man Eater could see me when she walked in. dancing in my seat listening to the music and sipping on my drink. Being that it is kind of dark and I can't see very far.....I have to wait until people get into my prime eye sight for me to truly recognize who they are. I see this man walk in and he appears to look alot like J hand in with young lady. Here comes Church Member running over towards me and I just shook my head and laugh. She tells me that He comes in here once a week with her. I look and say Ooooook and your point. She gets my point and change the subject very quickly. We talk about different church functions that are coming up. She motions with her eyes that someone is walking by. I don't pay attention who ever the person is.. I am here to have a good time. I look up for some strange reason and who do I see? Clueless.......yes my dear friends I was just shocked then as you are now reading it. I did nothing. Again, I wanted to have a good time without the drama. He was not alone and made sure that he came over and spoke. All the friends that Clueless and I once shared well let's just say that avoided me for whatever reason...I don't know. I saw most of them on this night. Surprised to see me..... I received so many hugs, kisses, apologies, and offer to buy me a drink once I finish my first one. I thought to myself Am I dreaming? Pinch me so I can wake up because it getting too weird. I pinch myself to see if I would wake up in my bed. I felt the pain and it was real. I am talking and catching up on old times with people. There is a small crowd of familiar people around me and my drink is gone. I am not anywhere near tipsy. Clueless asked if I want to dance....sure why the hell not this can't get any weirder than it already has. We get on the dance floor and start dancing. He comes close to me and says I'm sorry for everything......the pain, lies, exposing your health, making you struggle, not supporting you. I could go on but we would be here all night. I stop dancing t for a minute and become a sponge to absorb everything that he has said. I just looked at him and release him from my bondage I forgive you.....now be a good daddy...... not a sperm donor.. to all your children. Maybe it was the alcohol but I could have sworn that I heard chains being broken and certain wounds that were being healed. Standing in awe of everything. The music was long over. He escorted me off the dance floor and brought me back a soda. Everyone was asking me was I OK. I let them know that I was fine. I sipped on my soda then here comes J making his way over to me. I can't stand up at the moment because I am an emotional wreck. J sits in the only available seat right next to me. We hug each other and then he whispers in my ear She is my sister in law. I get up and go over to where his sister in law is and invite her to a place that is safe. She smiled because she was more than happy to do so. I told him that it did not matter who she was to him , you just don't leave a woman period to the vultures. She and I both laughed because it was true. I was there to have a good time and that is exactly what I was going to do. Man Eater came in followed another unexpected surprise. One of my military buddies I had not seen her in a year after we came back home. It was a wonderful surprise. I was glad to be around familiar faces. I had a wonderful time. I kept the dance floor hot and just think I only had 1 drink. I was having a good time. I dance with everybody that I knew. I noticed that J was looking at me smiling while he and Clueless talked. I did not care what they were talking about I wanted to dance the night away. I wore out all my guy friends and the 2 wall flowers J and Clueless standing around. I grabbed both of them to dance......now that I think about it maybe I was a little tipsy.....Hmmmm who knows? We danced together to a high tempo then a slow started to play. Clueless dance with a random female. J took my hand and we danced. It was really nice. Man Eater kept the floor hot as well. Even with all the dancing , I was still pinching myself because I could not believe that this was happening. I had two more mixed drinks and ate some good soul food. The kind of food that sticks to your ribs. After my food settled, I was back on the dance floor. I even learned a couple of new dances in the process. I danced until the club closed at 2 in the morning. Everyone gathered and decide that we go should go to IHOP. That sound like a plan to me because I was hungrier than a run away slave.

In IHop, I hear the skinny jokes...I really don't mind it because once the food comes there is always a silence over the table when I eat. I am not a pig when I eat ....I do have manners. The thing is that I don't play with my food I eat it. LoL!!!! The food came people laughing and eating. Couple of people that have not experienced the way I eat was shocked. Wondering how I can stay so slim , eat a feast fit for a nation, and not gain any weight? I tell me I work out and watch what I eat so I can keep up with my girls.

Feeling like a hog, I was ready to go to sleep. I could see that in everybody eyes which means that was everybody cue that was time to go home. Everybody hugged and exchanged numbers to keep in touch. J walked Man Eater and myself to my car. I got in and put my seat back and started snoring. I don't remember climbing the stairs to my bedroom or taking a bath.

I am still thinking that I was dreaming so the next morning I remember that I had taken a few pictures. I knew that it was real.........it really was real.