My mind is still on auto pilot from Thursday. I have discovered that I need to increase my exercise routine because the  muscles in my legs are sore but hey I had a good time.....

Yesterday was the day that I was suppose to return to work. I did not have to go in because my work was brought to me along with a few other things. Man Eater and Shoe Freak arrived at my house around 930 with a whole forest within their hands. Coffee was already brewing and I was in the process of cooking breakfast. The girls were gone until Sunday so the house seemed a little too  empty even with Tag there to keep me on my toes. Warm Salutations were exchanged them and I. All my daughter did was look at them without any indifference because she missed her sisters and she had her alpha persona working over time. We eat first......it's always good that handle business on a full stomach.  They all helped cleaned the kitchen and table so we could get some things accomplished. We wanted to go outside but the wind was too fierce to fight. I decided that open the blinds and invite the sun to stay awhile.

I sit down and asked for the 411 on things at work. I get stares then silence. I knew something was up. Three Dollar Boss is suing me and the company for wrongful termination. One of my team members tried to kill their selves while at work. My team has been fighting amongst themselves but neither one could tell me what the reason is. Other than that everything else was the same. I was speechless because Tuesday was the day my people meet J 's people for the big promotional project. I scan the papers for all the suggestion that my team made and made notes on how to implement them in the project. My mind went back to the lost soul that thought taking their own life was the best answer. I really don't want to know how this person was trying suicide..... I want to know why? I want know there is all this chaos and drama between the team members. I started to see the big picture as to why when I asked certain questions and the subject would get changed. I know that whatever they were hiding from me it would come the light.

Shoe Freak: Miss Thing, your little crew is out of control. Out of control.

Just listening to her tone, I knew that I had to suit up in war gear and I did not have enough time to sort things. I think that I am going to have to reschedule the meeting. It's not a thought......I know I have. There is no way that I allow them to with another group and have the visitors to see that our professional slip is showing. I was in disbelief a bunch of grown people there to do a job and acting like 1 and 2 year children. I gathered up my little forest and put them in my work bag, so I would not forget them.  My phone rang and it was Rawdy crying on the other end. I asked her what is wrong but I knew the source for her pain. I asked her where was she and then she told me Sitting my car getting ready to go into a Mass. I looked at the phone then I asked her to repeat herself and she did.  I made her promise to wait for me before she went in. She exactly that waited until I did just there. I arrived there in no time the way Shoe Freak drives. I see sitting in the car. I get her out the car and hug her and hold her tight. I could feel her tremble and violently sobbing within my arms. Man Eater and Shoe Freak rubs her back while the other strokes her hair.

Me: Why did you chose to be here?

Rawdy: It is the only place .......I go to when I need to think. I am not Catholic and I needed to feel God's presence right now.

We could understand and relate to that on so many levels and dimensions. We walked in, each lighting a candle of prayer. We all sat there and prayed over our situations and each others. Sometimes, you get a little confused and cannot see your way. Times like these are the best time to listen and ask for wisdom.