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I was in despair when I wrote this and comtemplating taking my own life . I was in a ver dark place and I was very angry with GOD and mostly at myself.


Dear God,

Did you hear that my womb has been

stripped

and

made bare?


God, why did this happen?

What have been to deserve this?


I wish I tell somebody else

besides just you

and the Doc

I am worthless like a penny with a hole in it.

I am hopeless and up to my head in it.

I still feel the pain even though

it's been a month ago....

Why did I have to fight back at first?

Why could I not just lie there and comply to his every whim?

I have to take the pain the away......

to get to a  brighter day

I can't leave my babies behind

I don't them screwed up like me

I wanna be so bad.....

GOD,  have fallen that much from your grace

that you chose to turn your back on me?

Closing your ears when you hear my prayers

Ignore my pleas to set me free

O GOD, please help me.

I think I am about to leave.

One Love





Posted by Nubian on 2008-04-29 00:02:00 | Rating: | Views: 110


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Posted by
Plakola
on 2008-04-29 11:58:15
 
Great poem. I feel the same way. I feel trapped too bu tthe only thing is that I don't have any children, just been depressed, down and out and wish that the universe can just take me now
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-04-29 14:11:08
 
Thank you, Plakola. Sometimes things can get us down and talking about it can help. The answers are right in front of you if you chose to listen to them.
 
 

Posted by
Imhere
on 2008-04-29 16:50:12
 
Great poem from a beautiful heart. I'm sorry someone hurt you without regard for the beautiful person you must truly be. Life can be so dark. If you get a chance, read this story from The Bible. I don't want to preach to you, or give you advice, as though I somehow know how you feel. I have never faced anything like this. However, I think it might help you to know how Scripture says God feels when we hurt. John 11: 17-35.
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-04-29 21:15:35
 
Thank you, Imhere. I have been to able read this scripture. At first it was a little hard then one day I just felt at peace with what I was reading.
 
 


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