Angel has become more dependent on her oxygen tank and insisted on that we finish her memorial service. Lately, she has been having trouble talking to so she writes everything that she wants to say. Even with her voice gone, her eyes still tells you what she is trying to say.

She knows :

1. what she is wearing when she is laid to rest

2.who will do her hair and make up

3. what kind of flowers she will have

4. the color of her casket

She asked me to write a poem for her and this means she wants to hear it before her time comes. She told me that she wanted to me  deliver words from her when she can no longer speak.  I knew exactly what she meant words from the heart. She wrote  what she wanted to say then had to stop because she was dozing off to sleep. Even though , her time here was winding down she still made me feel like that was no time limit with her. I made a promise that I would not cry while I was around her but to enjoy the time that she and I spend together. I have kept my vow to her but sometimes I have to admit that it has been hard. Believe me it has been very hard.  I have been talking to a therapist concerning Angel's affairs. Thank GOD for laisons they are heaven sent. I have this strange feeling that I am beening watched everytime that I am with Angel. Maybe it is just my imagination.........but then again I have to know. I am a little drained emotionally today so I will end it right here.

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