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 Febuary 1999, I wrote this poem after my daughters (3&2 at the time) came in the room crying because they had a bad dream. My oldest told me that she saw me dead and my middle girl said that she could not wake me. What they did not know.....I was putting the plan to make on my own life in motion. The whole day I acted as if nothing was wrong. I even took pictures with the girls just so they will have something to remember me by. I was down to the last step when my daughters came bursting threw the door crying like someone was after them. I ran to comfort them without thinking.


Dear God,

I know that I have not spoken to you in awhile

because

I knew that you would send someone to try to talk to out of it.

I must say it was a very sneaky thing to do

Sending the girls in here

crying

so hard that they were gasping for air

It made me think that I was being so selfish.

Maybe I could find a better way

To deal with this pain

I understand

my work is not done

I know now more than ever my work is not done.

I know now that

I have not fallen too far from grace.

The real question is

how I find my way back to myself?


One Love
 
Posted by Nubian on 2008-04-29 00:03:00 | Rating: | Views: 65


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Posted by
anotherdaze
on 2008-04-29 09:31:06
 
I'm so glad to hear your girls saved you!
I deal with depression on and off. Mostly on. I have thoughts of suicide. I have even know very young people that have taken this rought with kids. Everyone asked "how could they do that with kids?". I know when your that down you don't think your doing your kids any good. Like they'd be better somewhere else. But God gave them to you! Get help before you let yourself think too much on that ever again. God Blessed you and he loves you!
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-04-29 14:02:10
 
anotherdaze,thank you and you are so right....Doing this time I was feeling that way and I was not sure if God even was listening to me. When my little girls came rushing in crying everything that i was going through meant nothing. I showed that GOD was listening to me all the time.
 
 

Posted by
Imortal
on 2008-04-29 22:43:48
 
ya im glad that girl saved u
 
 

Posted by
Nubian
on 2008-04-30 14:33:24
 
Me 2, Imortal...Me 2 :)
 
 


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