Today, I have decided to do some emotional cleaning. It’s time for the release all my floetic thoughts. I hope that who ever comes across my words finds peace, words of encouragement, hope or all of the above. I just feel so heavy emotionally and it’s wearing me down. I could not visit with Angel because I think I am trying to catch a cold or something. Her immune system would kill her if I can around with my germs. Today, it was a 3 way chat Attorney, Angel, and me. I listened to the thoughts that every1 had……..for some reason I was quiet. I did not have much to say and I would rather be a sponge to absorb knowledge on this day. The conversation was about Angel’s sassy mom. We laughed because now we figured out where Angel’s sauciness originated from. I feel so emotionally dead down lately. I was really doing my best to not allow my feelings to ooze out. But too late they already picked on the way I was feeling. Either one pushed the issue on why I was feeling this way....hell if I knew why then I would fix the problem pronto. The conversation kept on going until Angel thanked for me sending her a poem I had written entitled Let's Get Lifted. She asked me how does my mind bend words like that. I had to laugh because I have been asked that question so many times. All I can truly say is that it is a gift that was given to me. She told me that I should more because this an other extension of me. Attorney agreed with her. I knew that they were speaking the truth for this is what J has told me as well. I tried to dismiss this part of the conversation but neither wanted this conversation to die. Angel said you have so many things that you have been through and the way you caused my mind to bend around your words is amazing. I shifted around in my seat because I never told anyone some of things that I have went through but I have written poems about them and never showed anyone. Attorney chimed in you know that it time to start cleaning out your emotional closet......she was saying something else but I honestly was not listening nor paying that close attention. Attorney and Angel's words stuck a cord with me.
This conversation was not just a coincidence..... I was suppose to hear this and really feel it this time. The first time I did not take it seriously from J and I was really searching then too I like I am now. I must admit that this a little too much for me. I am not retreating.......I am just going to do what I was instructed to do...........which is to clean out my emotional closet and release all things that I have experienced. This may take me a minute so please bear with me.
One Love
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