Today I decided that I was going to devote a little time to myself. I really did not know what I wanted to do or where I wanted to go. I really did not feel much of having some comapny ...I just knew that I wanted to be by myself. The house was silent the girls gone to school and Tag was getting a much needed pampering at the groomer. It's just me here listening to the wind. Finally, I have a blank mind.....aaaaaah its so wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then the phone rings...... I pushed the speaker button said my salutations Then I heard that signature sultry sexy voice you know the voice that just makes you want to rip your clothes off and ooze your sweetness all over yourself , then again maybe it was just me I kept my wits about me as he and I spoke.
X: Hello Ms.Nubian, how are you?
I immediately sat up on the bed as if I had been caught doing something wrong.
Me: I am simply divine and fabulous,X. How are you doing?
X: I am sure you are, since your shackles have been broken. DAMN, the ink on the decree has not even dried properly and here they are coming out like roaches when the lights come out.
Me: So why are calling me? I know that hell has frozen over or has it?
He laughed at me while I rolled my eyes and signed deeply.
Me: Look you are wasting my time.
X: I don't want to waste your time....I know how you are. I wanted to know what you were doing this weekend.
Me: LoL!! O my this rich! Do you have some kind of death wish or something? Please don't answer that. I already know the answer that. I cannot believe that you have the audacity to ask me out when........do you remember the transcripts of our last conversation?!
There was silence on the other end and to keep from being rude I said salutations again to make sure that I was not talking to myself.
X: I am here.......just waiting for you to finish talking. What was I suppose to do when I found out that you were still married? I really loved you....did even know that? Did you even care?
I inhaled deeply and exhaled to blow away the anger.
Me: Save the BS for the Born Yesterday Females for you know that I am not the one. I told you about my situation from the issues that I was dealing with and my companion status. I laid every card out I had on the table and allowed you to decide. You knew I was not looking for a relationship, hell I was already in one. You knew everything there was to knew about me......knew things that I would take to my grave than to stand infront on own mother and confess on. You knew it all. You talk about you loved me how can that be possible when you had your own issues? I was there for you because I saw that you were trying. I was there for your children because they needed a female figure in thier life. You chose to do me dirty. You chose to cut me out because I would not sleep with you. You chose to put your business out on the street, thinking that you were hurting me but really all you did was hurt yourself. I have told you before that I don't throw anybody awat like garbage. I will let you know what you have done to me, then give you the opportunity to fix it. If you chose to do the same thing continuously then I will help you at a distance.....no more close up help.
X: I realized that I was wrong and I want to apologize to you. I must admit you were a good friend to me and you helped me to keep the girls in line. I missed that.
Me: I don't need you to apologize to me. I have already forgiven you, it took some time but forgiveness finally came. I have heard about the girls and what they are doing? They are definately off the change. What is your wife doing about it......that is her job now.
He gasped as if I was not supposed to know that he was married. I continued, Yeah, now let's be act our age , shall we? Man , you and I have an overlapping circle of friends , aquintances,business associates.....and so on. It was bound to come up. So, back to the real question what is it that you want?
X: I really need your help.....my wife and I need your help with the girls.
Me: I will have to see. You must understand that I have other things that I need to tend to. I have to meet with you and your wife.....I have no need for the drama. Have your wife call me and set up an appointment to meet. I don't want to hear from anymore until then.....understand?
X: I understand. I will have her call you......... I cut him off before he could finish his sentence.
Me: Then we have nothing else to talk about.
I hang up the phone while he was trying to explain something. I was not interested nor was I in the entertaining mood. I felt that it was best that I ended the conversation as abruptly as I did because I knew where he was trying to go. Trust me, I was not about to go there not even for a second. As I laid back into my nesting I made in the middle of the bed my mind was awake speaking.....
I was beginning to wonder how long it take for the roaches to start coming out. Now, who else will call me or happen to see me out in public. Im ready for it>>at least I think I am?
I silenced my mind a little bit by turning on some music. Slowly my mind went blank and there was silence once again.......aaaaaah. Im luvin it!
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