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Bryan and I have drama yes no doubt there after cheating on me its been like playing hard to get...only its more like hard to get BACK! Well okay, Im human and being human I require certain things… >.> and if you know me than you know that on my list of things I require Sex is right up there next to food and sleep, it frustrates me when I don’t get it and well when I have to much…scratch that….having to much never happens…
Anyway, B and I are trying to figure things out...
And its been difficult…but not nearly as difficult as its gotten….a little under a week and a half ago my Best Friend Raven checked himself out and came back home to live in this cock infested house yes that now makes 6 cocks living under one roof, its getting frat house like only I’m sure a frat house is probably more sanitary than here haha okay just to be fair the house is…relatively clean…I mean >.< As clean as its going to get anyway…I keep getting off topic…meh…having Raven back is like being in a love hate relationship, I love him because he’s always been there in the times when I needed him most, hes been a shoulder I can always trust, a very good friend >.< and…a good lover…though I’ve never dated him... I hate it because he’s EXTREMELY over protective. He found out Bryan cheated and it’s been world war 3 in the house non stop since. Raven and Bryan don’t get along in the first place….polar opposites being forced next to each other…Raven didn’t like the idea of me dating him and still doesn’t like the idea of me dating him especially now…on my birthday they hit an all time low, B said something nasty to Raven, set him over the top and they started fighting, blood splatter face breaking fist fight, and I woke up to it…on my birthday…SWEET! >.> I’ve been staying in my own room so when I woke up to glass shatter and yelling I ran out of my room to see what the hell was going on. Raven needed to go to the hospital to have his lip stitched because Bryan pulled out his lip ring…yes I mean tore through the flesh of his lip… with a blow to the face so blood gushing everywhere…lovely…Bryan though not needing to be hospitalized still had lots of damage to the face…*SIGH* ONLY MY FUCKING BOYS!
Heres where I come in and make things much more dramatic….
I’m a whore, I won’t deny it, I can’t deny it especially after I get this off my chest….
>.> *sigh*
Here goes….
Upon Ravens return I gave him a little something something…a welcome back to sane life gift…
>.> Yeah for those who don’t get that….
I fucked him…>.<
That’s not the only time I’ve fucked him, but it’s the first time I’ve done it since he left and well as always he’s really good at it….I know…I know that’s no excuse especially when I’m trying to figure shit out with Bryan, like could I make things more complicated…Bryan doesn’t know this, and I wont tell him but my fear is that Raven will say something and boom…explosion…especially with how protective Raven is…
Well….
Last night….and this is the second time I’ve done this…
I had Raven come to bed with me…yes I know…bad…well…after everything was said and done…Raven fell asleep and I laid there…awake…not really tired but with a lot of reason to be tired I just laid there and flipped through channels on the TV….
My cell phone buzzes with the sound of a text message…I pick up my phone…its Bryan with a simple message…
“Come downstairs”
Okay….I crawl out of bed, slip on my sweatpants, kiss Raven on the cheek and make my way to the basement…I’m thinking we need to talk and figure things out…anyway we did talk, we talked so well that our lips ended up locked and within a few more extra minutes he was on top of me pulling my pants off…
Did I stop him?
No….
*sigh*
Yes that’s right…for the second time in my life….I fucked Raven and Bryan not even an hour apart…two people that hate eachother…and if they find out it’ll be like watching celebrity death match only subtract the clay celebrities and make them human.
I would like to point out…
That I was completely sober (okay I consider being stoned to be relatively sober so whatever)
Why did I do it?
-.- I honestly cant answer that but right now I feel pretty disgusting because when I went back upstairs at 4:30 this morning Raven wanted to do it again…and im thinking….you wouldn’t if you had any idea what I just did….I passed out…
I feel disgusting…
And….
the actions above are a good representation of a disgusting whore who just didn’t get paid….
*sigh*
Please just don’t let either one of them find out….
My brain is so messed up these days I can’t even think straight.
Mr. Fritz got his stitches out….I got the surgery on my hand yesterday morning….and my goal to have enough money to move out has FAILED! Because -.- im a broke slut who doesn’t have a job.
Sweet.
COULD I BE ANYMORE OF A FUCKTARD!
-.- yes….i could have gone to alex bed after if he didn’t have a fucking hamster slut sleeping next to him every night..
Oh yes…
Theres a new girl…
She dressed up as a hamster on Halloween…yes…a hamster….homemade costume…kinda slutty….but a Hamster?! Like…a slutty hamster?! -.- oh…and shes fucking stupid like my IQ goes down when I talk to her…
Bryan and I were talking about this Faux fur coat that he has and she called it fox fur….”its not Fake Fur its Fox Fur, there is no such thing as fake fur”….-.- ALEX WHAT ARE YOU GETTING YOURSELF INTO!!!!!!!!!! -.- please…if your going to start dating again at least make sure she has SOMETHING! Between the ears. *grumbles* we spent 30 fucking minutes explaining that Faux Fur is not FOX fur…Im sorry but if I have to explain that to someone…they aren’t worth talking to…
Oh and shes over like everyday now….she thought Washington the state was called Seattle…-.- I cant even talk about her without getting irritated…oh and she doesn’t understand the don’t touch me rule…every time she walks in she tries to hug me or she grabs my arm im like….DO NOT TOUCH! -.- GAAARRUUUGHHHHH god.
She got wasted on Halloween and kept trying to sit on my lap I was like…okay…bye bye *pushes off* seriously….not interested in some dumb bitch….dont get me wrong…if I turned off my brain and let it go into autopilot shed be a great fuck…shes hot as hell….but really…once she opens her mouth it vanishes and its like okay…insert gag here….I make fun of her all the time…she doesn’t get it…clueless….completely clueless…
I prefer brains to beauty. You might be hot but your probably stupid and expect to get somewhere based off looks only…that’s the type of girl I’m talking about….cant stand them….-.- I can’t stand her….and shes over EVERYDAY!
now im freaking irritated...on top of feeling like a whore....god im no better than she is i guess....she cant even figure out shes being used...like...Alex calls you over...fucks you then you leave....do you think she even knows what a boyfriend is? Probably not....
im done....
done bitching...
but never done being a whore....
BLEH.
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Posted by NtK on 2009-11-03 13:41:37 | Rating: | Views: 44
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