No one is ever truly gone we are immediatly in heaven or hell.and believe me time heals all these kind of hurts been there, JESUS LOVES YOU AND HE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE YOU. He says that He knew us before we were in our mother's womb. You are never ever alone. HE promised to never leave us nor forsake us.IF you don't know my best friend and Savior, let me introduce you to Him. HE is our Savior not only from hell which He died on the cross to save us the punishment of Hell. But he came for you and me the broken hearted those are His words.All you have to do right now is Say "Jesus I ask that you just take my life and do something with it. I need you to save me." Thats it I promise that if you do,He will be there,right there beside you and hold you in His loving arms and carry you through this all.
In Christ Love

Everyone fails, everyone faces rejection from the ones they love, and no one person is close to perfect. You hit a brick wall but don't let it bring you down. You come off as a nice, caring person so you'll find someone else. When you fall you just pick yourself back up. So, maybe you fell down a well, just take you're time and climb out of it.

Best of luck to you. :]