Really starting to not care anymore again.  Life can't give me one fucking break, just one.  Can't find a house to live in, family is still all fucked up, girlfriend's acting wierder then usual....

I'm really starting to think, maybe all this stuff wasn't meant to be.  Maybe I'm not suppose to have a family, relationship or home.  I don't seem toknow anything anymore.  I feel sluggish and clouded all the time.  It sucks but there's nothing else to do but keep going foward.  Thank god it's football season. (FOOTBALL not soccer!)