Honey i feel your pain. I am a mom of three. My oldest son is from another relationship, and I have recently lost him. I have no custody what-so-ever. I get to see him on saturdays for two hours while his father watches us. And its not because of anything I did. I am with a man that has been abusive in the past. And because of that, my sons father doesnt want him to come to my house without supervision. And because I am also BROKE I cannot afford a lawyer, so his jacka** of an attorney wipes the floor with me everytime. I lay in bed at night and wonder if Ben thinks of me, and if he wants to come home and be with his mom and brother and sister. And he can if my boyfriend would take an anger management class. But everytime we bring it up it starts a war. He doesnt think he has to, and gets defensive. Do i chose my son and leave him, or do i think of my other two children i have with this man and try and make a family out of what is left?
I don't know if any of this helps you, but i feel like i am at the bottom of the barrel and nothing could get worse. Maybe I could just be a friend to someone who feels the same way. But believe me i do feel the same way, nothing left to lose.

Trust me you are not alone. Everybody has their days of feeling alone, scared, insecure, and broke. I'm suffering from all of it as I'm writing this. I see all my friends either coupled up, engaged, expecting a baby, and all those feelings come over me worse then a flood. The thing is I don't feed into them. I fight them everyday. I know I'm broke, but I also know that money will come eventually, I know I'm alone, scared, and insecure, but I know I don't want to make a hastey design and try and fill that gap with false love and having sex before I'm ready. I'm telling you to hang in there and everyting will be okay.



♥ Camille