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| Jan 6, 2008 _ These Thoughts
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~*~ Why do men have a thing with pissing women off? They just hit the nerve and expect you to be fine. Umm Hello __i say im fine means leave me alone n let me be all bitchy n pissy nothing u can say or do to make things any better. When I'm pissed I get quite and just there playin wit my tongue ring or chew on my lip could he just let me do that __ hell no had 2 talk bout it. I dont wanna talk about it I dont wanna fight about it. But maybe thats what we need_ maybe we need to argue ~*~
I was holding his phone in my hands with his head on my shoulder and thats when her call came through. I understand he's worried about his child that she is carrying but it was right after we got done fighting bout him disappearing for two (2) hours and I believe he was with her because she called him twice before he went missing. I mean my heart believes he loves me and not her shes just having his baby thats all. But my mind is crazy mixed thoughts. I dont want to agrue but this is one of the times we have 2. I dont want to be pissed cause he is worried bout his son but I'm just pissed bout other shit too. It just right after I started to believe he wasnt spending time with her and she calls while I had his phone.
((rolls eyes))
The day was suppost to be spent with just us. His dad was gonna cook me dinner and everything. But no his sons life was on the line I understand that but right when I thought the day couldnt be no more perfect! Ahh I hate being Wifey #2 _____________
Please someone understand what is going on in my mind. I dont want to think this shit but soooooo many things add up in my head they all make sense but thats not how it really is. My mind makes me think thats what it is but He wouldnt do that. Or would he? My mind and heart are on two (2) opposite pages. I hate bein a fuckin schitzo. I just want to live a normal life and not have to think my man fuckin me over so how knowing he isnt though..He says when his son is born that he's gonna be with me weather its his or not. Its so hard to believe him. I do trust him but after that baby comes things will change. I fear he gonna run to be with his son. My mind is all fucked up...No one understnds my mind ( i dont half the time ) and I have to try and explain whats going on through these writings I write to you. SO baby Please understand I dont wanna think this shit but i can not help it!!!
My thoughts are thinkin some twisted shit __ Like maybe be we shouldnt be together until after his son is born :-(
** Im going INSANE ***
Slim Im sorry My Mind Is SO Fucked Up!!
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Take it from the 3d wife of a man who has 4 kids. This woman will be in your lives for at least the next 18 years as they share a child. He will be responsilbe for child support and helping to raise his son along with you. You must ask yourself if you are ready for that responsibility.
Many hugs to you.
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Posted by LLHS
on 2008-01-06 20:32:07
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Sorry you are going through this! Hope you can get evertyhing figured out. (also I noticed ur thing says ur from northside...i live in brighton heights)
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Posted by LostMommy19
on 2008-01-07 02:00:24
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