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If someone had told me how corrupt working for the local goverment was i never would have believed them. I have been in my job now for 2 years and it's getting that unbearable that i dread getting up in the morning. I understand that i am not the only person to hate my job but i really had great expectations for my job when i started in post.
I work for the anti-social behaviour resolution team for my local council. Many people assume that my job is stressful in itself but i really enjoy working with the young people and thrive on the challenge of making a difference. I was completely overjoyed when the job was offered to me not long after leaving college because i was aware that it can be difficult getting your foot in the door with your local authority with minimal experience. At my interview it was commented on how keen and enthusiatic i was and i was ecstatic to accept the job offer when made to me.
It is my first full time job and has opened my eyes unbelievably. I have worked since i was 16 but mostly just small meaningless jobs to get me through my education. I have never been so excited to start a job because it was what i had worked so hard for 3 years at collegge for and i was finally getting to do something worthwhile.
Unfortunately it was short lived. After being in the post only 3 months i was so miserable. There was an individual i worked with who did not attempt to hide the fact that she did not like me and made enjoying the job duifficult for me. I attempted to not let it get to me and battled on but other people at work were picking up on it and i later found out she was making her thoughts about me known to the rest of my team. Fowrtunatley for me most of my team favoured me over her as her personality began to shine through and people started to see her for the scheming arse licker that she was. I went to my co-ordinator but littel was done!
She was particualry close to one member of our team. A person i was initially quite fond of and enjoyed working with. He had a good sense of humour and seemed to be kind and willing to help anyone with anything but cracks were begining to show. Rumours were going round about the people he was friendly with that were much higher up the tree than us and how things were leaking to these particular people and some of our team were even being set up for a fall because of it. I never took anything that was said for granted but wanted to make sure of the accusations were correct before jumping on the band wagon.
Not long after a position was created for one of our team to be promoted did i see everything for what it really was. My boss did not seem to hide his obvious favouritism and it because obvious who was set up for the post. It was also mentioned to a member of the team that the postition was practically taken and therefore the interview process that followed was a farce!
The atmosphere became unbearable in the office but i was beginning to feel like the lime light was lifted from myself and my foe. A member of the team left because of the politics of the situation and i thankfully got moved teams so that i no longer worked with her and the job improved almost instantly.
It wasn't long before everything changed again, this time for the worst. I got changed around teams again this time put with someone new to train because according to the new 'Senior' it would be good for my development to train someone up. The reason that made more sense was that he wasn't split up from my foe as they were beginning to get unusually close, so much so jokes were made about extra curricular activities.
Everything was becoming a nightmare again and i began to seek other employment, i found it particulalry difficult to sell myself for how much my self confidence had been knocked and also the confidence in organisations i was likely to apply for. I gave up and tried to just get on with it hoping my perseverance would improve my chances of finding better employment further down the line.
Last month it got too much. My foe had taken it upon herself to start diggin again and her relationship with our 'senior' was stronger than ever. i mostly kept myself to myself but i was still in effect being picked on. One night we were taken off our duties to be spoken to by our senior and it all kicked off from then! It was dig after dig all aimed at me over petty things. i was accused of something i hadn't done and he tried to take me down for it, fortunately i had by chance got an alibi and the plan backfired but i became well and truly hurt by the attempts to shaft me and scar my good name. i had alway put everything into my job and tried my best to get on with everyone.
I had enough of being singled out and went off on the sick for a fortnight with stress. i couldn't take it any longer. on my return to work however my boss took no interest in my previous term off sick and so i told him i was looking for alternative employment. still never took any time to talk to me about what might be wrong adn i couldn't help feeling like i am being deliberately pushed out.
It is all about favourites and i am desperately looking for alternative employment to leave ASAP. i feel like a failure for not fighting my corner but they all seem to have the right people on their side and i do not feel like i could win, instead i have chosen to be a coward and take it lying down beacuse at least that way i will recieve a good reference when i move and my record will remain clean! It doesn't help me despising my cowardly face in the mirror each moring though! :o(
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Posted by NoAngel on 2007-10-03 10:38:24 | Rating: | Views: 71
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