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Liking Nishikido Ryo...

What am I thinking?! I actually have given up my feelings for Calvin Chen and here I go again... Going back and doing the same old thing by super liking Ryo Nishikido. I know for a fact that this is really stupid. I know am not going any where with this feeling that I have for Ryo. I should have known better. But I can't help... I really, really, really like Ryo Nishikido.

And for now, I can't say no to myself. I don't know how long will this feeling last but at this point of time, Ryo makes me smile. And am happy! I know that it is really pointless to waste my time on him. Spending most of my days thinking about him while he doesn't even know I exist in this world. And what worst is~ Ryo doesn't have any clue that I super like him. I tried to surf the net and look if he has some kinda blog where fans like me can go to, to express my feelings towards him but there's none. I don't know, maybe I just didn't really find it.

Anyway, it's okay. I'll be fine. There's nothing to worry about it. If fate will bring us together someday then I'll be the luckiest girl in whole wide world but if not, well~ it's gonna be alright too. It's not like it's the end of the world for me if I won't end up with Ryo. My life will still go on and I gotta move on too. Besides, I can't force things to happen the way that I want to. Because if it's not meant to be then it's not gonna happen even if I'll feel really bad about it. So what I can do right now is to wait and let fate handle things on it's own way. I can only wish that at the end of this journey, on the other side of the road... Ryo will be there waiting for me. That would really be the sweetest, most wonderful thing that's ever gonna happen to me. ^^

But for now, it's still early to tell what's gonna happen next. We don't know what's ahead of us, do we? So I'll just wait here until that day comes... I'll wait for that perfect moment to come! (Or maybe not =.=)