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dont you hate when people
usually ones that you don't even know
and who don't know you
try to pre-judge
you?
shy.
stuck up.
two very different words
but each has been used to describe me
understand me
label me.
shy.
i was considered "shy" for about the first 18 years of my life
(im anything but)
stuck up.
i am now considered stuck up since i (honestly) can't stand human interaction other than what is required of me...
(im anything but)
i have tons to say
to you
you
and you.
i relate...
probably one of your stories
your tales
your problems
has been one of mine
i am not shy....i am selective to who i open up too (why is this wrong?)
i have had a rough life
came from a rough background
my life is FAR from perfect
i've made my share of mistakes
had my share of regrets
i don't know you
you don't know me
i've never been there done that like you, as you
you've never been there done that like me, as me
therefore,
i have no room to judge or make fun of anybody
i am not stuck up...i am selective to who i open up too (why is this wrong?)
i believe you should be who you ARE
and i don't know when the rule
that you should be nice and courteous and attentive and respectful and accommodating
to everyone
literally
everyone
(even the people you don't entirely care for)
came into play
but i'm living that life
and more and more
i can't stand to look myself in the eye
when i see myself in the mirror
my opinions
my thoughts
are mine
i am entitled to this
growing up
being an adult
were things i dreamed about when i was young
to be able to be me
say what i had to say
stay true to myself...
i am officially 21
i am officially an adult in every way
is this who i want to be
some quiet person in the corner with so much to say
that i can't?
because i'm more worried about people's feelings
..actually no
im more worried about what people will think of me
if i REALLY spoke my mind
more worried about that
than to just get this shit off my chest
and make sure I feel good
life
life
when will you make sense?
brightbluecotton: thank you for your post, your writing inspired me to write honestly. thank you, i needed it.
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Posted by NiquiaSpeaksa on 2008-06-02 02:36:20 | Rating: | Views: 68
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It appears that our cups runneth over with inspiration, eh?
I know how hard it is to open up.
It's hard to have people not care.
It's harder (at least I think) to be incapable of giving a shit about others.
Hey listen, I know that you're hesitant to open up--- and I get that, I can totally relate. But if theres something... anything, you need to share-- message me, seriously. I'm up for listening. To whatever you want to say. Little, big, heavy, insignificant, whatever's on your mind.
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Posted by brightbluecotton
on 2008-06-02 19:22:14
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God can I ever relate to this post!!
"life
life
when will you make sense?"
Never, thats half the fun and half the agony.
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Posted by smileforthecamera
on 2008-06-19 12:52:40
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