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Ok, I am going to be using my Thoughts page just to vent about random things. The first post, I am going to be venting on a certain girl who I am so confused about.
I met her officially one month ago. The way I met her was simply through a friend. However, I didn't find out she liked me until I had already graduated from High School, and shes a grade below me. But, my friend gave me her phone number, and she said at the very least just text her. At first, I wasn't sure about this whole thing, but I decided against my gut and did it anyway.
At first, we were talking nonstop for days, sometimes weeks, and I loved every minute of it. We had the same things in common, and viewed everything the same. It really was amazing. Until I found some stuff out about her.
She had a MySpace, and all over it, wrote things like how big of a smoker she is, and how much she does drugs, and I couldn't believe it. She seemed so sweet at first, and then it was like in one flash second, my love for her was shot. In my book, that is just the most nastiest things to do, and it really hurt me when I found out.
So, I called her out on it. I told her that we need to talk about things, and we have to find the direction we both want to go in. She told me she had strong feelings for me. However, I told her I just don' know about this anymore, You have the greatest personality, but I can't get past the whole drug issue. (Its a long story as to why I have such a dislike for it)
Well, now shes saying that she wants to see me for the first time, and she kind of pushed for the idea to see me on a break while I was at work. I never gave her definite answer as to me not wanting to see her. I just don't know. I love her personality, and to me, that's all that matters, or atleast should. But, when you use drugs and/or smoke, it overshadows everything. I am not too sure if she is getting the hint, but I am trying to break things off with her with as much ease as possible.
One thing I told her was to simply get clean. She needs help, in my opinion, and her parents, or anyone else for that matter doesn't seem to care what she does.I keep telling her "I'm here for you if you want to stop", but everytime I say that, she slams me with stuff like "You should care more about you, and not me", etc.
So, I am leaving this up to the viewers. If you think I should stop trying to hook up with her, simply hit "No", but if you feel different, hit "Yes". I just can't decide, it's too much for me.
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Posted by NiFederico on 2009-11-04 16:00:51 | Rating: | Views: 16
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