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It has occured to me now that ive actually gotten a couple comments, literally 2, that maybe something I say people will want to read. Or at least have the whole story. So here it is, a little late, but nonetheless. My name is Heather I am 24 yrs old, turning 25 soon caucasion, American. I am 5 months pregnant with the child off my on again off again relationship of approx the last 4 years. The other half of this dubious duo is Sam, a 34yr old Nigerian male. He is black and whether its due to his personality or his upbringing he is very much of the opinion that the man is rght. Cause he is a man of course. Now don't get me wrong, since I have been attracted to him for a long time, hes not a total jerk. When i met him we were working together and I was 20 heading toward 21 quickly. I fell head over heels with him. He was working and going to school full time, he has such ambition and intensity. he can be funny and surprising. I loved he had a strong personality. Our relationship was difficult from the first we worked different schedules, add in his full time school hours. It was hard. I could always find a reason to excuse cancelled dates, being late, dates that involved simply staying in if you get my meaning. And then there came a point where I wanted to know if he was in it for the long haul, if he heard wedding bells down the road for us. Despite everything i never got a straight answer, so i dumped and took him back, and dumped him again. Etc. Neither one of us ever let go of the other and so here i am. Pregnant. Dealing with a man who thinks we should live if not get married for the sake of the child. Im sorry but gentleman if you ever get someone pregnant never tell them you want to get to married cause of the kid, particularly if you havent shown such an inclination before. He is a person who when we disagree says we will talk about it later, as in we will discuss it when i let him have his way. Heck he has even gone so far as to tell me that if he doesnt approve of the name of the child, he wont sign the birth certificate. Not that he doubts the child is his he just wants his way. I dont know what to do anymore. I know I cant let him use threats of any kind. But right now im dealing with hormones and the fact despite his flaws he is my first love and the only person Ive ever loved that much. However I know that love is not enough, that you need more from both sides to make things work. And I refuse to let the love I hold for him over power the things that I know are right for me.
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Posted by NewMom24 on 2009-07-05 21:11:31 | Rating: | Views: 22
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