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I guess that I always had symptoms of pms, but didn't really have anyone that I cared about pissing off or whatever, you know, I'd yell and scream at friends, parents, my brother, but I was just pissed at the world or whatever, I guess I remember being more mad than sad in the past, but now it's the opposite, I'm pretty sure that has to do with the whole having a man dealyhoo, but it could also have do with the return of the seizures, I seem to have a total hormonal out-of-whack thing going on then. The reason that I bring this up is that I am generally thrilled with my relationship, sure the lack of communication and lack of getting down and dirty bothers me a tad, but I usually just think about how much I love him, but when that time of the month rolls around I start getting all paranoid and thinking that he doesn't want me because either I'm too fat or maybe not fat enough and that I don't have ginormous boobies, it just sucks, but of course I don't really realise that it's probably because I'm a woman until it's too late. So, there is really a different post that I was going to write, but I know that I probably won't feel that way in like three days so maybe I'll just keep it to myself, if I still feel the same way then maybe I will bring it up. It does include the fact that I don't feel sexually wanted or attractive because he won't discuss sex with me, I mean, if we were doing it on a regular basis or if he would just do some more sexual things maybe I wouldn't think about it as much, and yes he knows how I feel, but I just sit and stew in my own juices and then I think that maybe he is on some kind of power trip and wants me to feel that way, I don't ever want to think that of him, but like I said, I have a lot of time to think bad thoughts. |
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Posted by Nerdnutt on 2008-07-13 15:17:58 | Rating: | Views: 25
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Hi,
I don't have a solution to your conundrums above. But I just wanted to say "hi" and I know how you feel. Women get challenged every month with nature, let alone other things we have to deal with.
So I wish you well, and say keep blogging it out, it helps me :)
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-07-13 16:15:56
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Thanks, I do know that I'm not the only female doing with this and it helps, I guess I just hate the not knowing from one minute to the next what kind of mood I'm going to be in and totally treating my like crap or being really needy or whatever. You know I totally started blogging because I was having total inner turmoil and wanted to get it out and maybe meet some people who agreed with me or not, along the way. So, thanks again, dude!
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Posted by Nerdnutt
on 2008-07-13 23:24:34
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